[Mood: None]
yesterday. 270804.
gawd. i just love you babes. // it's like, totally greatt. don't ask me. // just punch me.
they're so, so, so, way cool.
*melts*
see their moves. it's incredibly melting. // farah . ewin . aisyah // you girls rawk. so...
whateverr.
but it's just the sec1s and that // damn monkey // spoiling your whole dance thing.
damn them?
[happy ending]
had counselling with mdm leong. // i'm no problematic kid. // just had some difficulties.
life's tough.
got an undertable seduction. // from a girl. // like, what?!
that is so wrong. // what's the world getting to? hello.
andy's birthday yesterday. // was supposed to meet at 2.30. //due to some changes
i was late - doh. // sad case. hasn't been good jo.
watched 'face' with // nd . ky . gab . fred . jer
some boo! parts at the beginning. // follow then was totally funny. // can't stop laughing.
more romance stuff though. // boring show. waste cash.
bad day. jer's not happy. // she cried. i cried.
our trip on the mrt back home was kewt. it was very crowded. as in very. okay. there's this man who didn't have a support on the train and just slamped his hands at the board i was leaning on. it was like, his whole armpit's right beside my face. (stressing on the right). it's like, what the... orbviously we laughed. non-stop.
saw // daryl . his friends // at lot1.
today. 280804.
will be going to church with jer // later on at ch. // then to sun's concert. interesting.
^_^drones in happiness.^_^
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
guys' hair.
[Mood: Hippie]
hey girls, have you ever wondered why guys lurrve keeping their leg hairs? i've tried picking my brother's leg hairs and he just yelled. i thought perhaps he's afraid of the pain so i asked him if he wanted to use mousse to remove them. he said "i want to remain my manhood." haha. what manhood have he got =X just kidding just kidding.
keeping their "hair" means keeping their manhood? funny logic. but guess the "hair" thing's just don't click to girls and girls will never understand.
mr jeremy have some hair. hair hair hair hair hair. and on his leg there's so much hair. hair hair hair hair hair. and hairy hair here. hairy hair there. here hair. there hair. everywhere hair hair. mr jeremy have some hair. hair hair hair hair hair.
^_^where's that hairy guy?^_^
hey girls, have you ever wondered why guys lurrve keeping their leg hairs? i've tried picking my brother's leg hairs and he just yelled. i thought perhaps he's afraid of the pain so i asked him if he wanted to use mousse to remove them. he said "i want to remain my manhood." haha. what manhood have he got =X just kidding just kidding.
keeping their "hair" means keeping their manhood? funny logic. but guess the "hair" thing's just don't click to girls and girls will never understand.
mr jeremy have some hair. hair hair hair hair hair. and on his leg there's so much hair. hair hair hair hair hair. and hairy hair here. hairy hair there. here hair. there hair. everywhere hair hair. mr jeremy have some hair. hair hair hair hair hair.
^_^where's that hairy guy?^_^
.+***+. 260804 Thursday .+***+.
[Mood: Dead]
for the past few days i've been trying to stuff my whole damn head into those books and notes. and finally that week's over. gladfully (uh?). i don't want to know about any of those marks and schemes thing. just want to shut the hell up and leave those stuff.
today i was supposed to take a chemistry test (or i should say my class), but i'm absent. too tired. too tired. like, boo. have been sleeping early last night till 12 today. those pukings have been all over me. eewl.
230804 monday i went to the toppest level of the carpark near my house. it's like, nobody really went there, no cars were parked there too. so it's really a nice place to slack. jerina and i were supposed to go there and study chemistry, but in the end we keep shouting and doing catwalks. doh. till it was like almost night and something eerie happened. jerina and i were sorting out our notes when we heard a tac tac tac kinda sound. it was far away at first and got nearer and nearer. it's like, right beside jerina - we could both hear it. when we looked around to see if there's anything falling near us, we could see no thing. so both of us looked up to see if anyone played pranks on us - and we saw this mobby headed thing there by the window. i'm not sure if it's anything 'you know'. but it doesn't seem like 'those' to me. looks more like a tee. but when jerina starts to panic, it made me fret too. so in the end both of us left. bliss. she's so scared and dare not bathe alone so... ... don't think about what happened after that.
my week isn't very smooth-sailing. got lots of hiccups along the way. but guess that's how my life should be. i've got some boo-boos and pathetic heats with my whole damn life, and got a counsellor to counsel me. i'm not sure if this whole counselling thing works. but guess that's how it is. my first session with the counsellor starts tomorrow. sigh.
do my friends ever care? maybe i'm just their toy and playmate. i can't find them anywhere. they used to demand me for my cares and concerns. i gave them. but i don't get it from them. like, hello? maybe it's none of my concern anymore. i should just get more sleep... and more sleep... and more sleep... maybe then i won't wake up anymore. and i won't see the sun again. maybe that's when i will find what i really wish for. bliss.
^_^tired with everything.^_^
for the past few days i've been trying to stuff my whole damn head into those books and notes. and finally that week's over. gladfully (uh?). i don't want to know about any of those marks and schemes thing. just want to shut the hell up and leave those stuff.
today i was supposed to take a chemistry test (or i should say my class), but i'm absent. too tired. too tired. like, boo. have been sleeping early last night till 12 today. those pukings have been all over me. eewl.
230804 monday i went to the toppest level of the carpark near my house. it's like, nobody really went there, no cars were parked there too. so it's really a nice place to slack. jerina and i were supposed to go there and study chemistry, but in the end we keep shouting and doing catwalks. doh. till it was like almost night and something eerie happened. jerina and i were sorting out our notes when we heard a tac tac tac kinda sound. it was far away at first and got nearer and nearer. it's like, right beside jerina - we could both hear it. when we looked around to see if there's anything falling near us, we could see no thing. so both of us looked up to see if anyone played pranks on us - and we saw this mobby headed thing there by the window. i'm not sure if it's anything 'you know'. but it doesn't seem like 'those' to me. looks more like a tee. but when jerina starts to panic, it made me fret too. so in the end both of us left. bliss. she's so scared and dare not bathe alone so... ... don't think about what happened after that.
my week isn't very smooth-sailing. got lots of hiccups along the way. but guess that's how my life should be. i've got some boo-boos and pathetic heats with my whole damn life, and got a counsellor to counsel me. i'm not sure if this whole counselling thing works. but guess that's how it is. my first session with the counsellor starts tomorrow. sigh.
do my friends ever care? maybe i'm just their toy and playmate. i can't find them anywhere. they used to demand me for my cares and concerns. i gave them. but i don't get it from them. like, hello? maybe it's none of my concern anymore. i should just get more sleep... and more sleep... and more sleep... maybe then i won't wake up anymore. and i won't see the sun again. maybe that's when i will find what i really wish for. bliss.
^_^tired with everything.^_^
Monday, August 23, 2004
.+***+. 220804 Sunday .+***+.
[Mood: Bored]
today's sunday. yesterday's saturday, and tomorrow's monday. it's no good. mondays are usually bad - it's a flow. damn. sometimes my parents drives me to hate them. they really stink. as in "stink" not stink. whateverr. don't ask me why - they just stink. church today's okay - went for meeting at 9 (was late - as usual); it's sort of like a prayer-meeting thing. well, it's okay. i didn't rot. after that whatsoever, i went to the 10a.m service, and didn't turn up for the fellowship - i needed to get home to stick my mind in my physics book. damn! i haven't revised for my chinese yet. can i die?
anyways, i went home, ate a burger, turn on the aircon... and slept (i was supposed to study and not sleep!). however, that was SO good. i slept really well. no distractions and blah (and it's the good cause of the anti-birds-campaign thing in my room. like, hey-get-the-birds-out kinda thing. i guess my brother's with that too. heehee.
okay, i slept for a few hours (don't ask how much i've slept. if you know me well, you should know). woke up and i feel so hungry.eat, eat, and eat. i can't stop eating. no wonder i'm growing wider. don't give a damn. anyways, i went to study (physics. duh.) it's boring! let me spell that to you again - p.h.y.s.i.c.s. damn!
cool. it's 8.22p.m and today's 'ba yue er shi er hao' 8/22! cool.
alrights. study again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again.n.n.n.n.n.n.
^_^rotting and going to decompose. yay.^_^
today's sunday. yesterday's saturday, and tomorrow's monday. it's no good. mondays are usually bad - it's a flow. damn. sometimes my parents drives me to hate them. they really stink. as in "stink" not stink. whateverr. don't ask me why - they just stink. church today's okay - went for meeting at 9 (was late - as usual); it's sort of like a prayer-meeting thing. well, it's okay. i didn't rot. after that whatsoever, i went to the 10a.m service, and didn't turn up for the fellowship - i needed to get home to stick my mind in my physics book. damn! i haven't revised for my chinese yet. can i die?
anyways, i went home, ate a burger, turn on the aircon... and slept (i was supposed to study and not sleep!). however, that was SO good. i slept really well. no distractions and blah (and it's the good cause of the anti-birds-campaign thing in my room. like, hey-get-the-birds-out kinda thing. i guess my brother's with that too. heehee.
okay, i slept for a few hours (don't ask how much i've slept. if you know me well, you should know). woke up and i feel so hungry.
cool. it's 8.22p.m and today's 'ba yue er shi er hao' 8/22! cool.
alrights. study again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again. again.n.n.n.n.n.n.
^_^rotting and going to decompose. yay.^_^
Sunday, August 22, 2004
.+***+. 210804 Saturday .+***+.
[Mood: Happy]
i have been studying, and studying, and studying. nothing really gets into my damn brain - but it just gives me the boost and confidence i need (not totally, but yes). once again, in singapore, there's this common test thing. been booing at the books for the past months and now i'm flipping through them. i'm so stressed. but it's adequate for me to move on. and by the way, those papers just hate me - they gave me damn hard questions. i can't stand my teachers either. they keep telling my class what are the important stuff to learn - but they never do come out. can i bang the wall? shut up! i don't need you to say yes.
there's this wonderful thing i must share with all of you - sarah's back! although i'm not sure if SCJ2 is still intact, but who cares? the people's intact's good enough. now it's like a dream come true. my prayers were answered - 4 of us were re-united. just love them. may God bless our friendship.
wo men de ai~ if you ever really know me, you'll know i'm addicted to this song, and can't stop singing it - only that that's the only four words i know in the entire song. screaming those four words gives me the hit. yoohoo! major yoohoo. maybe my monkey, gorrilla, chimpanzee craze wore off, and this 'wo men de ai' craze comes on. like, put-on-the-teeshirt-yay-yay-yay kinda thing. i'm so glad it came on - like, click! the SCJ2 people love singing the elmo song - tralalala tralalala elmo's world~. it's totally nice. and now these came in - 'tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao, tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao~' (translation: strip off), and C is for cookie. it's very good for me~ wee.
buddy
i miss you alot - don't know if you are free in any ways. sometimes i'm not sure if i should call you and chat with you, like for a few minutes and ask how are you, but i'm really afraid i might be a nuisance. just hope you'll see this one day - you're still on my mind. and i really, really, really miss you alot.
i have been studying, and studying, and studying. nothing really gets into my damn brain - but it just gives me the boost and confidence i need (not totally, but yes). once again, in singapore, there's this common test thing. been booing at the books for the past months and now i'm flipping through them. i'm so stressed. but it's adequate for me to move on. and by the way, those papers just hate me - they gave me damn hard questions. i can't stand my teachers either. they keep telling my class what are the important stuff to learn - but they never do come out. can i bang the wall? shut up! i don't need you to say yes.
there's this wonderful thing i must share with all of you - sarah's back! although i'm not sure if SCJ2 is still intact, but who cares? the people's intact's good enough. now it's like a dream come true. my prayers were answered - 4 of us were re-united. just love them. may God bless our friendship.
wo men de ai~ if you ever really know me, you'll know i'm addicted to this song, and can't stop singing it - only that that's the only four words i know in the entire song. screaming those four words gives me the hit. yoohoo! major yoohoo. maybe my monkey, gorrilla, chimpanzee craze wore off, and this 'wo men de ai' craze comes on. like, put-on-the-teeshirt-yay-yay-yay kinda thing. i'm so glad it came on - like, click! the SCJ2 people love singing the elmo song - tralalala tralalala elmo's world~. it's totally nice. and now these came in - 'tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao, tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao~' (translation: strip off), and C is for cookie. it's very good for me~ wee.
buddy
i miss you alot - don't know if you are free in any ways. sometimes i'm not sure if i should call you and chat with you, like for a few minutes and ask how are you, but i'm really afraid i might be a nuisance. just hope you'll see this one day - you're still on my mind. and i really, really, really miss you alot.
Sunday, August 15, 2004
.+***+. 140804 Saturday .+***+.
[Mood: Happy yet Stressed]
well oh well. didn't keep up to my own promise today. actually i've decided to study first thing in the morning. but well, my cousin, Tan (the one from canada) will be coming over and it's her last few days here in singapore. so i sort of have to entertain her. pooey - what about my studies?! anyway, i brought her to causeway point to shop for some stuff.we bought this keychain - you know, those mini shoes kind. yea, and we bought some combs, mirrors, mascara... name it. the funny thng is - we bought sex bands. we're like, haha-so-when-a-guy-pulls-it-means-he-wanna-have-s-with-you-? kinda thing. don't laugh.
we sort of got bored in causeway, so we headed for sembawang. poo - the stuff's really, really, really bad. it's like - there's no shops for the teens. just rubbish, rubbish, and more rubbish. guess the only shop there that's appealing is 'this fashion'. like, boo. we sort of have to rush off, so we just stuff the ice cream into our mouths and booooo!
when we're heading back home, we sort of got high (guess there's some weird chemicals in the ice cream, yar?). we keep laughing (real hard, and real loud). and it's like, when the mrt's really quiet and stuff, we started lala-ing in high pitches and acting like retards. wee!
nice day. but i have to start studying. boo!
^_^droning in textbooks^_^
well oh well. didn't keep up to my own promise today. actually i've decided to study first thing in the morning. but well, my cousin, Tan (the one from canada) will be coming over and it's her last few days here in singapore. so i sort of have to entertain her. pooey - what about my studies?! anyway, i brought her to causeway point to shop for some stuff.we bought this keychain - you know, those mini shoes kind. yea, and we bought some combs, mirrors, mascara... name it. the funny thng is - we bought sex bands. we're like, haha-so-when-a-guy-pulls-it-means-he-wanna-have-s-with-you-? kinda thing. don't laugh.
we sort of got bored in causeway, so we headed for sembawang. poo - the stuff's really, really, really bad. it's like - there's no shops for the teens. just rubbish, rubbish, and more rubbish. guess the only shop there that's appealing is 'this fashion'. like, boo. we sort of have to rush off, so we just stuff the ice cream into our mouths and booooo!
when we're heading back home, we sort of got high (guess there's some weird chemicals in the ice cream, yar?). we keep laughing (real hard, and real loud). and it's like, when the mrt's really quiet and stuff, we started lala-ing in high pitches and acting like retards. wee!
nice day. but i have to start studying. boo!
^_^droning in textbooks^_^
Saturday, August 14, 2004
funny. so funny.
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.+***+. 130804 Friday .+***+.
[Mood: Depressed]
it's friday the 13th. no wonder i'm so depressed.
don't call me a depressed-freak. cos i'm not one. just that i can't think straight - for the moment. seems like everybody expect alot from me - my parents, my teachers, my peers, my buddies. i can't give them what they need. maybe i'm not a good friend to anyone. i think i should just silent myself from the people. sometimes i hope i'm not introduced to the technology. handphones and the msn are just stuff which i use to communicate with others. but i truly hope i don't communicate with anyone - everyone. things gets real confusing sometimes.
today (or rather, yesterday - look at the time!), school's just the same boring stuff. there's not much lesson going on and the cliques in my class were together talking and laughing and stuff. i'm not amused nor am i jealous i'm not part of them - i don't need those anyway. i start to notice stuff i haven't noticed before. they seem... different. i then asked the girl that sits beside me. she told me this "of course ma. you've never taken your time off to notice the changes around you. you're always thinking too much. xiang tai duo le ni dong bu dong." i don't quite get what she meant. but it didn't sound very good to me.
my after-school activities were the following... i waited, and waited, and waited for my friends to like, get ready - cos we're heading to swensen's. but in the end, one of them didn't turn up... YET. so mayne and i, together with wanching, went there ourselves (without the guys). it was nice - 5 scoops of ice cream for the each of us. yum. i got butterscotch, chocolate chip, yam, coconut, and vanilla. it's been a long time since i've eaten ice cream. tasted really, really, really good.
after those lickings and smackings, wanching went for her tuition class. mayne and i then headed for the mall (JP). we hunted for a pencil case (found one!). and the sad thing is, we're sort of short of money. i lent mayne some cash - but it's still insufficient. we needed 80cents more. we're like, what-the-hell kind of mood. COINS! WE NEEDED THEM! BOO!
when i reached home - i'm like a study freak. i can't stop studying. i worry way too much. after i'm done with those stuff, i can't find my cell. i was like, damn. but anyway, i continued studying - till it was like, way, way, way "early". i didn't really notice the time (i've never really noticed it anyway). now that i'm online, i feel so... good (yet depressed. like, huh?).
i think i needed time off to reflect. i've not done my part as a friend - somebody, wake me up.
^_^drones in some silent storm^_^
it's friday the 13th. no wonder i'm so depressed.
don't call me a depressed-freak. cos i'm not one. just that i can't think straight - for the moment. seems like everybody expect alot from me - my parents, my teachers, my peers, my buddies. i can't give them what they need. maybe i'm not a good friend to anyone. i think i should just silent myself from the people. sometimes i hope i'm not introduced to the technology. handphones and the msn are just stuff which i use to communicate with others. but i truly hope i don't communicate with anyone - everyone. things gets real confusing sometimes.
today (or rather, yesterday - look at the time!), school's just the same boring stuff. there's not much lesson going on and the cliques in my class were together talking and laughing and stuff. i'm not amused nor am i jealous i'm not part of them - i don't need those anyway. i start to notice stuff i haven't noticed before. they seem... different. i then asked the girl that sits beside me. she told me this "of course ma. you've never taken your time off to notice the changes around you. you're always thinking too much. xiang tai duo le ni dong bu dong." i don't quite get what she meant. but it didn't sound very good to me.
my after-school activities were the following... i waited, and waited, and waited for my friends to like, get ready - cos we're heading to swensen's. but in the end, one of them didn't turn up... YET. so mayne and i, together with wanching, went there ourselves (without the guys). it was nice - 5 scoops of ice cream for the each of us. yum. i got butterscotch, chocolate chip, yam, coconut, and vanilla. it's been a long time since i've eaten ice cream. tasted really, really, really good.
after those lickings and smackings, wanching went for her tuition class. mayne and i then headed for the mall (JP). we hunted for a pencil case (found one!). and the sad thing is, we're sort of short of money. i lent mayne some cash - but it's still insufficient. we needed 80cents more. we're like, what-the-hell kind of mood. COINS! WE NEEDED THEM! BOO!
when i reached home - i'm like a study freak. i can't stop studying. i worry way too much. after i'm done with those stuff, i can't find my cell. i was like, damn. but anyway, i continued studying - till it was like, way, way, way "early". i didn't really notice the time (i've never really noticed it anyway). now that i'm online, i feel so... good (yet depressed. like, huh?).
i think i needed time off to reflect. i've not done my part as a friend - somebody, wake me up.
^_^drones in some silent storm^_^
Friday, August 13, 2004
.+***+. 120804 Thursday .+***+.
[Mood: Bad]
why must people take me for granted. guess i'm not needed anywhere. today's not a very nice day. hope tomorrow is. maybe it's really time when i isolate myself - no more burden for both me and my friends. i'm such a pest. i've got nothing more to say.
dear lord to you i pray //
to you my life please take //
+ spirit89. droning in self pain +
why must people take me for granted. guess i'm not needed anywhere. today's not a very nice day. hope tomorrow is. maybe it's really time when i isolate myself - no more burden for both me and my friends. i'm such a pest. i've got nothing more to say.
dear lord to you i pray //
to you my life please take //
+ spirit89. droning in self pain +
Thursday, August 12, 2004
.+***+. 110804 Wednesday .+***+.
[Mood: Sick]
my past days were great. my cousin came over to singapore and my family's like, bringing her out and stuff. it was awesome. we were like supposed to go to sentosa, but due to some time problems... well, anyways, went to the zoo in the end. we were like, looking and looking and looking at the chimpanzees. they were adorable. sure had lots of fun - only that we're dead tired. our legs were so numb. but my aunt keep insisting that we continue walking and not taking the tram. we were like, please-we're-all-dying kind of mood. oh yeah, before we left the zoo, we cousins bought some kfc stuff and ate them in the car. within seconds it's like, poof!
oh yeah, my cousin, tanya stayed over at my house that night. moo. i was so, so, so tired. i can just die on the spot. and i can't like, wake up late. boo. anyways, both of us watched 'the village' at 11.30 in jurong point's theatre. i thought it was scary. but nah, not at all. tan and i were like, screaming at the wrong time - on purpose, of course. we're just feeling so... high.
today's really a bad day. keep having that damn gastric problem. didn't affect my mood much - but it's just always there. damn. lots of my teachers didn't come anyway - so had lots of spare time rotting away and stuff. and i was experimenting my hair. crap. damn junhao keeps throwing paper at me. pooey! you know, i thought today was tuesday so i brought my pe tee and looking forward for the day. but it's like - what the... no pe. no good books. boo!
had some choir meeting thing today. it was h.o.r.r.i.b.l.e ( i mean the starting part). jerina and i were desperately looking for the keys - we went up and down and up and down looking for ms tay and whoever that is holding the key. (what i mean by up and down is from level 1 to 4, from 4 to 1 kinda thing.) me, having gastrics, was feeling so, so, so bad. and poor jerina - she's sick (having a terrible plus horrible plus vegetable flu and is so bad) and have to look for the keys. sad. hope she recovers soon.
i am a cow. and always will be.
i thought we were one. //
until time tear us apart. //
my past days were great. my cousin came over to singapore and my family's like, bringing her out and stuff. it was awesome. we were like supposed to go to sentosa, but due to some time problems... well, anyways, went to the zoo in the end. we were like, looking and looking and looking at the chimpanzees. they were adorable. sure had lots of fun - only that we're dead tired. our legs were so numb. but my aunt keep insisting that we continue walking and not taking the tram. we were like, please-we're-all-dying kind of mood. oh yeah, before we left the zoo, we cousins bought some kfc stuff and ate them in the car. within seconds it's like, poof!
oh yeah, my cousin, tanya stayed over at my house that night. moo. i was so, so, so tired. i can just die on the spot. and i can't like, wake up late. boo. anyways, both of us watched 'the village' at 11.30 in jurong point's theatre. i thought it was scary. but nah, not at all. tan and i were like, screaming at the wrong time - on purpose, of course. we're just feeling so... high.
today's really a bad day. keep having that damn gastric problem. didn't affect my mood much - but it's just always there. damn. lots of my teachers didn't come anyway - so had lots of spare time rotting away and stuff. and i was experimenting my hair. crap. damn junhao keeps throwing paper at me. pooey! you know, i thought today was tuesday so i brought my pe tee and looking forward for the day. but it's like - what the... no pe. no good books. boo!
had some choir meeting thing today. it was h.o.r.r.i.b.l.e ( i mean the starting part). jerina and i were desperately looking for the keys - we went up and down and up and down looking for ms tay and whoever that is holding the key. (what i mean by up and down is from level 1 to 4, from 4 to 1 kinda thing.) me, having gastrics, was feeling so, so, so bad. and poor jerina - she's sick (having a terrible plus horrible plus vegetable flu and is so bad) and have to look for the keys. sad. hope she recovers soon.
i am a cow. and always will be.
i thought we were one. //
until time tear us apart. //
Monday, August 09, 2004
.+***+. 080804 Sunday .+***+.
[Mood: What-The-Hell]
today's rather a hastle. been so far-off. got up at 8, brushed my teeth, hit the bathroom and made a beeline shower. i was like, supposed to reach church at 9 for some prayer meeting thing. but guess my alarm clock's to blame. the issue is - i waited, and waited, and waited - for my pop, mom, and that little monkey, josh. they never got ready in time. well, i'm late, i admit - but good thing is, it's not all that started so i'm lucky enough to catch up the issues.
there's this great music thingy and i totally didn't know about it - i was like wanting to get inside my youth fellowship until stelly told me today's a combined. can i throw my head out? i'm such a sotong! then, i thought it would be a great communion or something. no, i'm wrong - they started singing like experts (they are, actually) and i'm sort of impressed (not until they keep singing songs without a main tune. like, doh - major DOH). i was like, going to doze off and stuff - mum did, actually (shhh, don't tell her i said that in my blog).
well, i wanted to join some audition thing (and the production staff will be impressed) - almost got in. unfortunately, my hiccups shown another boo-boo. so... too bad, yar? bad production. bad production. (truthfully, i can't remember much about my lines too. oops.) i was so elated until i found out that i was supposed to be the dance-host staff. shut up! (i'm gonna get that mean producer! slaughter her, people!) i will never cry. and i'm not crying... yet.
sigh. no ndp this year. no fireworks. just me and the tv. hump. that's bad - really bad. i badly wanted to go to ndp. but didn't get the tickets - it's total sadness. tissue, someone. i don't care (even if i'm such a wimp) - get me to ndp or i'll bomb singapore (with water bombs? like, uh?). ww3 will emerge from me, the terrorist.
^_^bring me to ndp and i'll be your maid!^_^
today's rather a hastle. been so far-off. got up at 8, brushed my teeth, hit the bathroom and made a beeline shower. i was like, supposed to reach church at 9 for some prayer meeting thing. but guess my alarm clock's to blame. the issue is - i waited, and waited, and waited - for my pop, mom, and that little monkey, josh. they never got ready in time. well, i'm late, i admit - but good thing is, it's not all that started so i'm lucky enough to catch up the issues.
there's this great music thingy and i totally didn't know about it - i was like wanting to get inside my youth fellowship until stelly told me today's a combined. can i throw my head out? i'm such a sotong! then, i thought it would be a great communion or something. no, i'm wrong - they started singing like experts (they are, actually) and i'm sort of impressed (not until they keep singing songs without a main tune. like, doh - major DOH). i was like, going to doze off and stuff - mum did, actually (shhh, don't tell her i said that in my blog).
well, i wanted to join some audition thing (and the production staff will be impressed) - almost got in. unfortunately, my hiccups shown another boo-boo. so... too bad, yar? bad production. bad production. (truthfully, i can't remember much about my lines too. oops.) i was so elated until i found out that i was supposed to be the dance-host staff. shut up! (i'm gonna get that mean producer! slaughter her, people!) i will never cry. and i'm not crying... yet.
sigh. no ndp this year. no fireworks. just me and the tv. hump. that's bad - really bad. i badly wanted to go to ndp. but didn't get the tickets - it's total sadness. tissue, someone. i don't care (even if i'm such a wimp) - get me to ndp or i'll bomb singapore (with water bombs? like, uh?). ww3 will emerge from me, the terrorist.
^_^bring me to ndp and i'll be your maid!^_^
Sunday, August 08, 2004
moodless merryman
[Mood: Depressed]
i guess i'm merryman-no-more. it's like, my mood has not been stable ever since the starting of this year. lots of stuff blocked my path to merryland - classmates, friends, betrayers, liars, backstabbers, rumors, hardship... gone through alot. learnt alot too. i told myself i have to stand strong and fight against my feelings - but yet again i stumble upon those little griefs.
sometimes i hope no one knew me - i wouldn't want to show how i feel. i don't want to be the always-sad-and-depressed-girl in anybody's eye. my smiles were always there - but why do people ask if i were okay? i'm okay, really. only that i needed more time to adapt to stuff.
maybe i think alot. i think too much about what others say of me, and what they think about me. maybe i should just keep them out of my mind and continue staying the way i am - to be myself, that is. i really think it is time when i close up to myself - alone, and shut out from the world. low-profile? yea, that's the thing. i will laugh and scream no more. i want to be that silent pea which was hidden behind the walls, at the corner where no one notices. that will be where i belong.
+ smile because somebody cares? well, do anyone? +
i guess i'm merryman-no-more. it's like, my mood has not been stable ever since the starting of this year. lots of stuff blocked my path to merryland - classmates, friends, betrayers, liars, backstabbers, rumors, hardship... gone through alot. learnt alot too. i told myself i have to stand strong and fight against my feelings - but yet again i stumble upon those little griefs.
sometimes i hope no one knew me - i wouldn't want to show how i feel. i don't want to be the always-sad-and-depressed-girl in anybody's eye. my smiles were always there - but why do people ask if i were okay? i'm okay, really. only that i needed more time to adapt to stuff.
maybe i think alot. i think too much about what others say of me, and what they think about me. maybe i should just keep them out of my mind and continue staying the way i am - to be myself, that is. i really think it is time when i close up to myself - alone, and shut out from the world. low-profile? yea, that's the thing. i will laugh and scream no more. i want to be that silent pea which was hidden behind the walls, at the corner where no one notices. that will be where i belong.
+ smile because somebody cares? well, do anyone? +
Saturday, August 07, 2004
marry me!
[Mood: Happy]
this is that big deal - i want to get married! any guy will do. (sounds desperate, yar?) i just love the wedding march. it's madness. maybe i'll just follow that "damn britney" procedure - get married and get divorced minutes later. i just want to go through those walks and turns and the 'i do' part. it's way cool, beyond imagination.
imagine me standing at the foot of the ship while the ship moves and my gown floats with the wind. what if i fall? (shut up, joanna) and then there's this titanic scene - where the guy and the girl acts like airplanes. no, no. maybe we should cut off that 'titanic' part. erms, it will then be replaced with a 'petal-throwing' kinda thing - which you throw your damn petals on whatever you like and... whateverr. it sounds so ironic.
yeah, and at the end of that wedding party, i'll throw the guy down the sea (better if it's like those sea with no endings and stuff). i'll then watch him trying to float and struggle in the deep blue sea. and with a twist of the steering wheel, i'll go reverse and knock that guy down. i'll then see if he survived. sounds fun.
^_^never more desperate^_^
this is that big deal - i want to get married! any guy will do. (sounds desperate, yar?) i just love the wedding march. it's madness. maybe i'll just follow that "damn britney" procedure - get married and get divorced minutes later. i just want to go through those walks and turns and the 'i do' part. it's way cool, beyond imagination.
imagine me standing at the foot of the ship while the ship moves and my gown floats with the wind. what if i fall? (shut up, joanna) and then there's this titanic scene - where the guy and the girl acts like airplanes. no, no. maybe we should cut off that 'titanic' part. erms, it will then be replaced with a 'petal-throwing' kinda thing - which you throw your damn petals on whatever you like and... whateverr. it sounds so ironic.
yeah, and at the end of that wedding party, i'll throw the guy down the sea (better if it's like those sea with no endings and stuff). i'll then watch him trying to float and struggle in the deep blue sea. and with a twist of the steering wheel, i'll go reverse and knock that guy down. i'll then see if he survived. sounds fun.
^_^never more desperate^_^
cuties
You Will Be a Traditional Bride!You're the type of girl who is feminine, old fashioned, and totally traditional.You've been dreaming of your wedding day since you were young And you can't wait to be a princess in your big white gown. It's likely that you'll have a big family wedding and take your husband's name While a huge affair will be fun, just don't go all Bridezilla about the color of your napkins! |
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blar
life's the day and life goes lightly //
silence's just the senseless bawling //
though you lodge with me this night //
you shall not see the morning light //
buddy.
music. works. lucky person. god loves you.
benben.
smile. because somebody cares.
joanna.
i want to get married. any guy will do. wedding march wedding march.
i hate cleavages. it comes from her. giant donkey.
donkey. eeeyoooorrr.
she hangs bras out to get some sun everyday. luckily mine's not there.
she badly needs sports bra. her cleavage's showing.
nooo! i don't want to see your saggy boobs. go away!
+ i am because, it's merryman. spirit89 +
silence's just the senseless bawling //
though you lodge with me this night //
you shall not see the morning light //
buddy.
music. works. lucky person. god loves you.
benben.
smile. because somebody cares.
joanna.
i want to get married. any guy will do. wedding march wedding march.
i hate cleavages. it comes from her. giant donkey.
donkey. eeeyoooorrr.
she hangs bras out to get some sun everyday. luckily mine's not there.
she badly needs sports bra. her cleavage's showing.
nooo! i don't want to see your saggy boobs. go away!
+ i am because, it's merryman. spirit89 +
drones
you told me i was your best friend //
you told me you will never let me down //
you told me you will always be there for me //
you told me that nobody can replace such a friend like me //
but one day //
you told me you had to leave //
you told me lies that were meant to hurt //
you told me stuff i don't want to hear at all //
you told me our lives weren't meant to cross in the first place //
i nodded as if i understood //
i stood there feeling helpless //
i held you tightly and whispered "i know" //
i knew my shoes were too tight for you //
my heart continued to beat //
my tears just won't come //
my mind told me not cry //
my hands were so numb //
what if you changed your mind and came back //
what if i was just living in a really bad dream //
will things still be the same //
will our laughters flood the hall //
i regretted //
from the day i let you go //
+ by spirit89 +
you told me you will never let me down //
you told me you will always be there for me //
you told me that nobody can replace such a friend like me //
but one day //
you told me you had to leave //
you told me lies that were meant to hurt //
you told me stuff i don't want to hear at all //
you told me our lives weren't meant to cross in the first place //
i nodded as if i understood //
i stood there feeling helpless //
i held you tightly and whispered "i know" //
i knew my shoes were too tight for you //
my heart continued to beat //
my tears just won't come //
my mind told me not cry //
my hands were so numb //
what if you changed your mind and came back //
what if i was just living in a really bad dream //
will things still be the same //
will our laughters flood the hall //
i regretted //
from the day i let you go //
+ by spirit89 +
.+***+. 060804 Friday .+***+.
[Mood: Exhilarated]
you can say i'm crazy but i don't care. it's like i'm screaming all the way on stage today (during the ndp thingy in our school hall). i'm just trying to bring up the mood, you see. the rest of the choir members are like, duh-why-am-i-here kinda thing. i don't want to stand there, raise the flag and sing like a ha-leh-loo-yah person. but the sad thing is, my friends say i look like a c.l.o.w.n. "thanks for the compliment". haha
going off to my cousin's place for a night's stay tonight. hope it isn't that bad... ... anyways, i'm buzzing off for now. somebody, please erase off my memory! it's way too embarrasing.
you can say i'm crazy but i don't care. it's like i'm screaming all the way on stage today (during the ndp thingy in our school hall). i'm just trying to bring up the mood, you see. the rest of the choir members are like, duh-why-am-i-here kinda thing. i don't want to stand there, raise the flag and sing like a ha-leh-loo-yah person. but the sad thing is, my friends say i look like a c.l.o.w.n. "thanks for the compliment". haha
going off to my cousin's place for a night's stay tonight. hope it isn't that bad... ... anyways, i'm buzzing off for now. somebody, please erase off my memory! it's way too embarrasing.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
chongy
[Mood: Happy]
whoa. you know, my vice principal, chong (or cheong. gosh. i really don't know.) is really, really, really insane. she's always frowning, and staring at people with her beady eyes behind those glasses (it's really thick). i think she's got her pms - only that hers' is everyday.
oh yea, she sat quite near me during assembly today. i thought i'd be rotting and 'siam-ing' away. but well, i'll just decompose there. she isn't that bad - only that she asked me to tuck my uniform in all the way, which i don't (even after she asked me too). she's pretty nice (why isn't she married?) *shrugs* i better shut up and blast off. talking about people behind their backs' really mean. okay, so now i'll blast off - again. kaboom!
whoa. you know, my vice principal, chong (or cheong. gosh. i really don't know.) is really, really, really insane. she's always frowning, and staring at people with her beady eyes behind those glasses (it's really thick). i think she's got her pms - only that hers' is everyday.
oh yea, she sat quite near me during assembly today. i thought i'd be rotting and 'siam-ing' away. but well, i'll just decompose there. she isn't that bad - only that she asked me to tuck my uniform in all the way, which i don't (even after she asked me too). she's pretty nice (why isn't she married?) *shrugs* i better shut up and blast off. talking about people behind their backs' really mean. okay, so now i'll blast off - again. kaboom!
.+***+. 04080404 Wednesday .+***+.
[Mood: Happy]
hadn't updated my blog for a few days. i'm sure i'm missed by all. anyways, these few days passed so quickly. first, huiqi lent me her 'fruits basket' vcd. well, within a day i completed volume one. amazing speed. it's like i keep watching disc after disc. girls, you'll be addicted - 'cos it's like, the cartoonic guys were so... (you'll get what i mean after watching it).
secondly, I HAD PE ! it was awesome - as usual. we played that taggy-rugby thingy again. it's not that fun compared to the previous time i played with it; but it's still as fun. i screamed. she screamed. and they all started screaming. let's scream - again.
thirdly, jerina (my evil buddy) stayed over at my house for the past two days and we were both lazing around the bed, reading magazines, sms-ing crap, watching the 'fruit basket' vcd using my computer (and we slept at 2+) gosh - you can read my eyebags, they are full of stories. this morning we both got up late (at exactly 6.58a.m) and surprisingly, we got downstairs after a few minutes. fast 'hor' ? well, we're not late, so don't worry. i have something sad to announce - she went home already. can i cry?
fourthly (like, huh?), had assembly today. some clearisal (is it spelt like that? graaaa. whateverrr.) people came over to my school and talked about maintaning your skin and stuff. it isn't boring. it isn't exciting either - but i paid attention to it (i didn't sleep okay). it's like, so good with my buddies, chamayne (moo.) and jerina (oink.) sitting with me. at least i have someone to bitch with. yawn.
fifthly (sounds kinda weird, don't you think?), i passed my chemistry test! okay, this is the thing - i didn't study for it, and i forgot the formula. i was supposed to fail it, but passed it anyway. my, aren't i lucky? i'll just die happy - right here. now. kaboom!
hadn't updated my blog for a few days. i'm sure i'm missed by all. anyways, these few days passed so quickly. first, huiqi lent me her 'fruits basket' vcd. well, within a day i completed volume one. amazing speed. it's like i keep watching disc after disc. girls, you'll be addicted - 'cos it's like, the cartoonic guys were so... (you'll get what i mean after watching it).
secondly, I HAD PE ! it was awesome - as usual. we played that taggy-rugby thingy again. it's not that fun compared to the previous time i played with it; but it's still as fun. i screamed. she screamed. and they all started screaming. let's scream - again.
thirdly, jerina (my evil buddy) stayed over at my house for the past two days and we were both lazing around the bed, reading magazines, sms-ing crap, watching the 'fruit basket' vcd using my computer (and we slept at 2+) gosh - you can read my eyebags, they are full of stories. this morning we both got up late (at exactly 6.58a.m) and surprisingly, we got downstairs after a few minutes. fast 'hor' ? well, we're not late, so don't worry. i have something sad to announce - she went home already. can i cry?
fourthly (like, huh?), had assembly today. some clearisal (is it spelt like that? graaaa. whateverrr.) people came over to my school and talked about maintaning your skin and stuff. it isn't boring. it isn't exciting either - but i paid attention to it (i didn't sleep okay). it's like, so good with my buddies, chamayne (moo.) and jerina (oink.) sitting with me. at least i have someone to bitch with. yawn.
fifthly (sounds kinda weird, don't you think?), i passed my chemistry test! okay, this is the thing - i didn't study for it, and i forgot the formula. i was supposed to fail it, but passed it anyway. my, aren't i lucky? i'll just die happy - right here. now. kaboom!
Sunday, August 01, 2004
.+***+. 010804 Sunday .+***+.
[Mood: Pleased]
i'm the happiest girl ever lived. i'm so, so, so pleased with myself. i can just die. though today (or yesterday? 310704)isn't very thrilling and filling, but my night was awesome - finished with the minutes which was dued tomorrow (or today?), and also finished helping my cousin type out the courtcase thingy. hey, it's not an easy task, you know. you need to like, cultivate patience and stuff, donating your time to help those who are in need. uh, i'm starting to sound like mrs eswaran. i just love myself, and i'm pretty, awesomely sure you all love me too, right?
by the way, evil spirits inspired men to erect statues of dead kings, to consecrate them and worship them. that is way so creepy. can you imagine - those china people, they are actually praying to... devils? eewl. doctor carl jung, the famous swiss psychologist possessed unusual occult powers and often had horoscopes cast for his patients. he claimed to have a spirit guide named 'philemon' and often spoke with him. in fact dr jung won his doctorate with a thesis on the subject of the occult. he sucks.
um. you must be wondering what i am doing in such an "early" night. looking at the time, it's 3.35a.m. well, as i've said i was working on those 2 workpiece and just got done with them. i'm not really feeling tired or what, so guess i'll just squeeze some stuff into this blog post. not sleeping yet. just left with 4 and a 1/2 hours to sleep before i need to go to church. bleah.
yea, i need to ask this - how does my mr. jack looked? he's not only handsome, he's... gorgeous. girls, don't drool and go goo-goo-ga-ga over him. he's mine!
i'm the happiest girl ever lived. i'm so, so, so pleased with myself. i can just die. though today (or yesterday? 310704)isn't very thrilling and filling, but my night was awesome - finished with the minutes which was dued tomorrow (or today?), and also finished helping my cousin type out the courtcase thingy. hey, it's not an easy task, you know. you need to like, cultivate patience and stuff, donating your time to help those who are in need. uh, i'm starting to sound like mrs eswaran. i just love myself, and i'm pretty, awesomely sure you all love me too, right?
by the way, evil spirits inspired men to erect statues of dead kings, to consecrate them and worship them. that is way so creepy. can you imagine - those china people, they are actually praying to... devils? eewl. doctor carl jung, the famous swiss psychologist possessed unusual occult powers and often had horoscopes cast for his patients. he claimed to have a spirit guide named 'philemon' and often spoke with him. in fact dr jung won his doctorate with a thesis on the subject of the occult. he sucks.
um. you must be wondering what i am doing in such an "early" night. looking at the time, it's 3.35a.m. well, as i've said i was working on those 2 workpiece and just got done with them. i'm not really feeling tired or what, so guess i'll just squeeze some stuff into this blog post. not sleeping yet. just left with 4 and a 1/2 hours to sleep before i need to go to church. bleah.
yea, i need to ask this - how does my mr. jack looked? he's not only handsome, he's... gorgeous. girls, don't drool and go goo-goo-ga-ga over him. he's mine!
Mr. Jack
[Mood: Happy]
.+***+. Mr. Jack .+***+.
sometimes it dawns on me - being a guy would be a nice thing, right? well, i'm like ooh-i'll-try. i've tried using the morphing programme - but somehow i'm a total noob for it. i don't even know how to start (except for loading the picture and deleting the other one). but my craze for that change hasn't stopped. so i tried using the 'paint' programme. stop laughing! it isn't ironic okay. at least i've turned myself into some... clown.
.+***+. Mr. Jack .+***+.
sometimes it dawns on me - being a guy would be a nice thing, right? well, i'm like ooh-i'll-try. i've tried using the morphing programme - but somehow i'm a total noob for it. i don't even know how to start (except for loading the picture and deleting the other one). but my craze for that change hasn't stopped. so i tried using the 'paint' programme. stop laughing! it isn't ironic okay. at least i've turned myself into some... clown.
<-- this is how i looked like after those modifications. doh. don't scream. it's not me, it's Mr.Jack.
apology
[Mood: Neutral]
um. sorry people for yelling yesterday. it wasn't supposed to be like that in the first place. i just got a little out of control. derrick's big entrance sure is some thing, yar?
continue to keep the posts flowing (as long as it is not about the 'derrick' thing). thankeww.
um. sorry people for yelling yesterday. it wasn't supposed to be like that in the first place. i just got a little out of control. derrick's big entrance sure is some thing, yar?
continue to keep the posts flowing (as long as it is not about the 'derrick' thing). thankeww.
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