Everything ends with a tiny note: “不要放弃”
Pretty adamant about "keeping my life the way it has always been". But. I'm compelled to make the bold move of doing otherwise. 'Cos I'm freaking dweeb-ed to the bone, it's pathetic.
After I closed an important chapter of my life a couple of months ago, I've been wrecked and lost. Motivation to move on has always been in my mind but has never exactly worked out. And work has been, well, taking up a whole lot of my energy. It's ruining me. I walk worrying about it, play worrying about it, bathe worrying about it, eat worrying about it, and sleep worrying about it.
Haven't had a good sleep in days. I'll sleep in intervals of 2 hours, before finally waking up in a jolt with a loud "S**T" hanging on my mouth. I'll be rushing to the computer to check my mails and then brush my teeth with one hand and type with the other.
I even had to work while hanging out with PB - Picking up calls and making arrangements in the midst of a movie. Really apologetic about it :-(
But well I guess this tiny bridge of mine will be making its "semicolon mark" pretty soon as I step into a new chapter of my life. Wonder oh wonder what exactly has been installed for me.
Dear Lord, give me a clue? xx