10 good reasons why i don't like you at all.
10. you look like a riceball head.
9. you are sick.
8. you fart. alot.
7. you pick your nose. in front of my friends.
6. you shout fcuk like nobody's business.
5. you called me bobo-jojo.
4. you always think you're smart and stuff. but you're not even average.
3. i can't continue eating after i see you. sometimes, i'll even throw up.
2. when someone smears mud on your face. you'll do the same. but make it bleed instead.
1. it's your face, that's why.
don't ask me who it is. i know you're reading this. somehow. sometimes i wanted to ask like, HELLO. DO I KNOW YOU? hey 'buddy', it's time to get lost.
.blowing makes joanna a rotten candle.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
rotting candle
//joanna. a rotting candle. molten. //
i am a rotting candle. burning. like, really rotting and stuff. and it's really burning. like, hot 'burning'.
blowing a candle on a lonely tuesday.
blowing the waters on a lonely tuesday.
blowing the chimes on a lonely tuesday.
blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow.
.blowing makes joanna a rotten candle.
i am a rotting candle. burning. like, really rotting and stuff. and it's really burning. like, hot 'burning'.
blowing a candle on a lonely tuesday.
blowing the waters on a lonely tuesday.
blowing the chimes on a lonely tuesday.
blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow. blow.
.blowing makes joanna a rotten candle.
280904 Tuesday
[Mood: Confused]
i don't know myself what i'm thinking of. i get so jealous recently. it's like, i'll feel really upset seeing my buddies keep talking and playing among themselves and i get to walk behind them. like, hello. there's nothing to feel jealous about. but weird, i'm feeling that way. and it's like, i keep noticing my lonesome presence. felt extra. like i don't fit in and stuff. maybe i really think too much, like my friends say?
yep, ice-drag, i've tried ignoring those feelings about my friends being liars. but it just can't go away. the feeling became so strong that i went home in the mid of a lunch with my buddies. mayne asked me what's wrong. don't ask me why. i can't explain. besides, do anyone wants to know they're being doubted by their own buddy? not me. jer asked me if i want to celebrate mid-autumn tonight at the cck taekwando practice area. hmmm. i don't know if i'll go later on. don't feel like. it's like, i'm afraid my "mood" will come back and spoil the whole event. plus, i won't want to affect my friends with my foul attitude. maybe i'll just spend the night alone. in my room. shrugs.
today's a nice day. had p.e (my favorite period). though no hockey today, but it's still fab. played badminton with manda. our sc hit our rackets continuosly and felt so contented when it didn't touch the ground. felt so great with her suddenly. like we're very close and stuff. that's a good sign.
so should i, or should i not celebrate mid autumn with jer and mayne?
.who am i to blame, who am i to blame.
i don't know myself what i'm thinking of. i get so jealous recently. it's like, i'll feel really upset seeing my buddies keep talking and playing among themselves and i get to walk behind them. like, hello. there's nothing to feel jealous about. but weird, i'm feeling that way. and it's like, i keep noticing my lonesome presence. felt extra. like i don't fit in and stuff. maybe i really think too much, like my friends say?
yep, ice-drag, i've tried ignoring those feelings about my friends being liars. but it just can't go away. the feeling became so strong that i went home in the mid of a lunch with my buddies. mayne asked me what's wrong. don't ask me why. i can't explain. besides, do anyone wants to know they're being doubted by their own buddy? not me. jer asked me if i want to celebrate mid-autumn tonight at the cck taekwando practice area. hmmm. i don't know if i'll go later on. don't feel like. it's like, i'm afraid my "mood" will come back and spoil the whole event. plus, i won't want to affect my friends with my foul attitude. maybe i'll just spend the night alone. in my room. shrugs.
today's a nice day. had p.e (my favorite period). though no hockey today, but it's still fab. played badminton with manda. our sc hit our rackets continuosly and felt so contented when it didn't touch the ground. felt so great with her suddenly. like we're very close and stuff. that's a good sign.
so should i, or should i not celebrate mid autumn with jer and mayne?
.who am i to blame, who am i to blame.
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
270904 Monday
[Mood: Upset]
we were going somewhere
only somewhere which i didn't know where
you can never be mine
i can never be yours
you were just someone
only someone whom i didn't know who
we were one
not anymore
just an illusion
something i can't touch nor dream of
one faded image reflected in the mirror
like hauling out the big game verbiage
i could only stand tall
high on the precipice of life
i've never thought of giving up
it's only till today
when i thought of you
and i wondered if i should stop
all i want is you
you and your singular brilliance could provide
i've grown old
and my sentiments tell me it's time to stop
world's chaotic waffling finally stopped me
who am i to blame, who am i to blame
.spirit89.
hey. it's been a long time since i've blogged. welcome me back.
hmmm. sometimes i wonder to myself, why do i doubt so much. it's like the whole world's lying to me. i can't even trust my buddies. liars? i don't want to treat my friends like some foes or backstabbers. they may not. though i strongly belief every (stressing on the every) friend of mine ever talked behind my back, but i'll still continue to treat them like great friends. everyone's bad. including me. i admit i do talk bad about my friends behind their backs too. i'll change. i'm trying to. and it takes time. i hope my friends will too. 'cos i don't like the feeling of doubting them.
God loves you nd, mayne, sarah, jer, benben, huiqi, and eve. Stay happy because others will smile with you.
we were going somewhere
only somewhere which i didn't know where
you can never be mine
i can never be yours
you were just someone
only someone whom i didn't know who
we were one
not anymore
just an illusion
something i can't touch nor dream of
one faded image reflected in the mirror
like hauling out the big game verbiage
i could only stand tall
high on the precipice of life
i've never thought of giving up
it's only till today
when i thought of you
and i wondered if i should stop
all i want is you
you and your singular brilliance could provide
i've grown old
and my sentiments tell me it's time to stop
world's chaotic waffling finally stopped me
who am i to blame, who am i to blame
.spirit89.
hey. it's been a long time since i've blogged. welcome me back.
hmmm. sometimes i wonder to myself, why do i doubt so much. it's like the whole world's lying to me. i can't even trust my buddies. liars? i don't want to treat my friends like some foes or backstabbers. they may not. though i strongly belief every (stressing on the every) friend of mine ever talked behind my back, but i'll still continue to treat them like great friends. everyone's bad. including me. i admit i do talk bad about my friends behind their backs too. i'll change. i'm trying to. and it takes time. i hope my friends will too. 'cos i don't like the feeling of doubting them.
God loves you nd, mayne, sarah, jer, benben, huiqi, and eve. Stay happy because others will smile with you.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
sarah's birthday celebration
[Mood: Damn Happy]
woo. celebrated sarah's 15th birthday at kbox yesterday. we're like, all crazy and stuff, jumping around the room and screaming through the microphones. it's like, when we hear someone from the other room sing, we'll shout "oie!!". it's like, so lame. mayne and sarah sort of slept. too cosy? hmmm. saw some regenites walking pass our room. at that moment we're like screaming and acting like air guitarists. but it's lucky they did not see us doing that. haha. we sort of smuggled a cake in. and the sad thing is, we realized we don't have any candles. so we're like, duh.
in the end we went to jerina's house to blow sarah's cake (at that point of time when mayne was supposed to meet wanching to copy her A math homework, and sarah is going to go for her cellgroup, jerina's house was the nearest and ideal place for the last minute cake-blowing thing). it's chocolate! yummm. that 1/2kg cake was eaten up by just the 4 of us. hoho.
woo. celebrated sarah's 15th birthday at kbox yesterday. we're like, all crazy and stuff, jumping around the room and screaming through the microphones. it's like, when we hear someone from the other room sing, we'll shout "oie!!". it's like, so lame. mayne and sarah sort of slept. too cosy? hmmm. saw some regenites walking pass our room. at that moment we're like screaming and acting like air guitarists. but it's lucky they did not see us doing that. haha. we sort of smuggled a cake in. and the sad thing is, we realized we don't have any candles. so we're like, duh.
in the end we went to jerina's house to blow sarah's cake (at that point of time when mayne was supposed to meet wanching to copy her A math homework, and sarah is going to go for her cellgroup, jerina's house was the nearest and ideal place for the last minute cake-blowing thing). it's chocolate! yummm. that 1/2kg cake was eaten up by just the 4 of us. hoho.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to sweetie.
happy birthday to you.
yo babe, you're one year older.
photo link: http://cokeblast-sarahbday.MyPicGallery.com
by the way, realize the date? september 11. creepy.
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
[Mood: Happy but Tired]
many people asked if i have plans during the holidays. well, my teacher have planned it all well for me already - lessons from 8 to 2.30 everyday. and tomorrow there's choir up till 5. damn. so don't bother asking me out. i'm superly packed. kill me if you wish.
today went to have a tan - it was like, bad. i forgot to bring my bb oil. and my tan turned out like, boo. you know, not those nice colors. anyway, it's okay. don't mind that much.
many people asked if i have plans during the holidays. well, my teacher have planned it all well for me already - lessons from 8 to 2.30 everyday. and tomorrow there's choir up till 5. damn. so don't bother asking me out. i'm superly packed. kill me if you wish.
today went to have a tan - it was like, bad. i forgot to bring my bb oil. and my tan turned out like, boo. you know, not those nice colors. anyway, it's okay. don't mind that much.
hmmm. aili's birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AILI.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
*hooray*hooray*hooray*hooray*
Monday, September 06, 2004
.+***+. 060904 Monday .+***+.
[Mood: Tired]
who would've believed that you and me would fall and land together// and who could've forseen in you i'd find the place i've belonged forever// and if i move closer, then love will take over// and lead the way// i'd given up hope losing the faith that love could be mine to treasure// and now nothing's the same// i found myself reborn on the day i met you// and if we move closer, then love will take over// and lead the way// suddenly you are lying here with me// and the truths i used to hold have changed// and if i move closer// and let it take over// then love will lead the way. [lead the way. mariah c.]
only you know how to make me shudder with anticipation. a displaced little girl wept years in silence, and whispered wishes you'd materialize. she pressed on night and day to keep on living, and tried so many ways to keep her soul alive. reflections of you have come to wither. i thought i'd done my best to memorize. a picture fades of you and i together. i haven't come to terms with how we said goodbye.
it's till you left when i learnt to treasure. many times i wanted to say i needed you, i wanted you. but painstakingly i would conceal the truth. you probably always knew i was timid like a child. inhibited and way too shy. i'd glance but then avert my eyes, all twisted up in my desire. but i'm not that girl anymore - i've waited for the chance to tell you. but oh well, everytime we would hesitate. the feeling i cannot alleviate.
in memory of J.
who would've believed that you and me would fall and land together// and who could've forseen in you i'd find the place i've belonged forever// and if i move closer, then love will take over// and lead the way// i'd given up hope losing the faith that love could be mine to treasure// and now nothing's the same// i found myself reborn on the day i met you// and if we move closer, then love will take over// and lead the way// suddenly you are lying here with me// and the truths i used to hold have changed// and if i move closer// and let it take over// then love will lead the way. [lead the way. mariah c.]
only you know how to make me shudder with anticipation. a displaced little girl wept years in silence, and whispered wishes you'd materialize. she pressed on night and day to keep on living, and tried so many ways to keep her soul alive. reflections of you have come to wither. i thought i'd done my best to memorize. a picture fades of you and i together. i haven't come to terms with how we said goodbye.
it's till you left when i learnt to treasure. many times i wanted to say i needed you, i wanted you. but painstakingly i would conceal the truth. you probably always knew i was timid like a child. inhibited and way too shy. i'd glance but then avert my eyes, all twisted up in my desire. but i'm not that girl anymore - i've waited for the chance to tell you. but oh well, everytime we would hesitate. the feeling i cannot alleviate.
in memory of J.
Saturday, September 04, 2004
posts
x nd x.
.x benben x.
.x mayne x.
.x hoho x.
.x jer x.
you all take care okay.
hmmm. miss charcoal (passed away on august 2003) all of a sudden. sigh. hope he's right here now.
.+***+. 030904 Friday .+***+.
[Mood: Tired]
it's been a long time since i've last posted. anyways, lots of happening stuff just happened over the week.
the teachers' day celebration was awesome. it's like, manda*ster*ann*that unknown malay girl*and i just kept screaming and cheering - for our favorite teachers and our supported group, dc7, that is. we're like, yoohoo! yoohoo! yoohoo!-kinda mood. anyways, dc7's dance was totally great. eka's cute, doing those talks and blah. they can really rock the stage. and yar, there's this rap by some malays. it's way cool. the lyrics' sweet. totally. *melts*
but my whole day hasn't been great. first, in the morning i can't find my socks and my shorts (and my parents wouldn't help me). then, i rushed off ('cos i'm almost late) and forgot to bring those teachers' day cards and gifts (left those on the table) damn. thirdly, i went to school, and i can't stop crying, and tan meow meow saw that. embarrasing. fourthly, the first period of the day's p.e. it's one of my favorite lessons ever. but the sad thing is, i forgot to bring my tee. damn. not only those, then, after the whole celebration thing, sarah*mayne*and i went to take the train to westmall (deciding to have our lunch there). but the thing is, the train just stopped at cck and say we can't board the train (remember, the red shirt person who died in the tracks at bukit batok? yea, that's the case - which my bro's on that train.) we're like what the hell? kinda thing. so, we went to lot1 to have our lunch. the food tasted so like food. so we ate. kfc, as mayne suggested. the even damn thing is, chilli splat on my uniform - again. i can never eat kfc in peace. lastly, when i reached home, i have to wash the dishes. i needed rest then !!! damn damn damn day.
alrights. on 010904, eve*claud*ster*cat*huiqi*and i went to windermere for a swim and had a mini bbq. it's niceee. pics: http://cokeblaster010904.MyPicGallery.com
ah, and so today, i didn't go to school. don't feel good at all (and partly 'cos i can't wake up). besides, it's friday. 'bo lessons de day'. i'm not a problematic child! shoo. and by the way, stupid hotmail deactivate my email account. i didn't check my email and the whole inbox has exploded. damn. just revived it.
<-- retards
SAY CHEEEESSEEE >.<
it's been a long time since i've last posted. anyways, lots of happening stuff just happened over the week.
the teachers' day celebration was awesome. it's like, manda*ster*ann*that unknown malay girl*and i just kept screaming and cheering - for our favorite teachers and our supported group, dc7, that is. we're like, yoohoo! yoohoo! yoohoo!-kinda mood. anyways, dc7's dance was totally great. eka's cute, doing those talks and blah. they can really rock the stage. and yar, there's this rap by some malays. it's way cool. the lyrics' sweet. totally. *melts*
but my whole day hasn't been great. first, in the morning i can't find my socks and my shorts (and my parents wouldn't help me). then, i rushed off ('cos i'm almost late) and forgot to bring those teachers' day cards and gifts (left those on the table) damn. thirdly, i went to school, and i can't stop crying, and tan meow meow saw that. embarrasing. fourthly, the first period of the day's p.e. it's one of my favorite lessons ever. but the sad thing is, i forgot to bring my tee. damn. not only those, then, after the whole celebration thing, sarah*mayne*and i went to take the train to westmall (deciding to have our lunch there). but the thing is, the train just stopped at cck and say we can't board the train (remember, the red shirt person who died in the tracks at bukit batok? yea, that's the case - which my bro's on that train.) we're like what the hell? kinda thing. so, we went to lot1 to have our lunch. the food tasted so like food. so we ate. kfc, as mayne suggested. the even damn thing is, chilli splat on my uniform - again. i can never eat kfc in peace. lastly, when i reached home, i have to wash the dishes. i needed rest then !!! damn damn damn day.
alrights. on 010904, eve*claud*ster*cat*huiqi*and i went to windermere for a swim and had a mini bbq. it's niceee. pics: http://cokeblaster010904.MyPicGallery.com
ah, and so today, i didn't go to school. don't feel good at all (and partly 'cos i can't wake up). besides, it's friday. 'bo lessons de day'. i'm not a problematic child! shoo. and by the way, stupid hotmail deactivate my email account. i didn't check my email and the whole inbox has exploded. damn. just revived it.
<-- retards SAY CHEEEESSEEE >.<
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