Last day of the year.

WARNING: LONG POST DETECTED

It's the last day of the year! OMG. 2006's gone just like that. So fast, too fast. But well it's been a fruitful year. So much have happened and I don't exactly know where to start.

Hmmm. Let me count my blessings first...
One. God's blessed me with more wisdom (I think). I've learnt to make decisions and prioritize stuff that's going on in my life. Although it isn't applauding in some other's eyes (especially friends), but well, at least I know I'm growing on the right soil. You lose something when you gain something. I've gained acknowlegment, and I've lost friends.

Two. My choice to FSV was a tough one - Some relatives and church people pin-pointed me, discouraging me from going to a polytechnic (they think junior college is The Way). But thank God - My family's been very supportive of me in whatever I do, and I think that's awesome. Love you, guys!

Three. My faith in God grew - Alot. There are so many setbacks in life, and especially in a new environment. I've worked with people I dislike, fought with deadlines, and murdered the internet (its glitch almost made me fail my assignment). But despite those hiccups, I'm still a happy person 'cos God is always there for me. When you lost a friend and don't really know who to talk to, Jesus' there. When you got ditched and betrayed and didn't know who to find comfort in, Jesus' there. When you're lost and don't know what life is about anymore, Jesus' there to show you the right direction. I'm glad I found someone like Him. :)

Fourth. I met new great individuals like Jiayun, Gina, Xiuqi, Cecilia, Huimin, Derrick, Jerry, Michelle, Kym, Jappo, Crystal, Cherisa, Lav'... etc. They made life easier for me when life gets pretty bad sometimes. Thanks sweets!

Last but not least. I've learnt a very important lesson - Nothing beats the importance of a family. Friends? They just leave whenever they want. But family? They're there even after a huge quarrel. That's what makes them special. :)

*ties you to your chair.*
Too bad, there's more...

Most lives are full of shit, and of course I've got 'em too. Aplenty. I've chose not to remember them, but !@#$%^&*, it keeps bouncing back like a rubber ball. zz. If you really want to know, read on. If not, there's nothing appetizing to read anymore, hurhurr.

One. I've lost most of my good friends. And worse of all, it's because of the same reason. It's annoying, but I can't do anything 'bout it, can I? I've prayed, I've teared, I've screamed. But I guess there's a reason to why God wants it to be this way. To make me stronger, probably?

Sometimes I get so jealous and so scared, but all I can do is to talk to my diary (and God, of course).
Like what Gina always tells me: "You got to say out what you feel! Don't always keep it inside, la!" Yea, maybe I should learn to actually talk and not blog and write shit.

I've pondered about this: What if my best friend's gone? SHITES. Then I've got not much people to talk to anymore - Most (not all, phew) of my "supposedly" good friends are not understanding enough to stay, you know (ya, maybe they are not so good after all, HAHA).
They say I'm too busy for them, hurhurr, and that my life revolves around schoolwork. RIGHT. Like they're not supposed to be busy with schoolwork. Get your priorities right, man. But well, some left because of other personal reasons... Let's not touch that right now! Don't wanna get all emo on Happy Last Day, hahaha.

Two. I've lost confidence. It seems as if the older I grew, the greater the barrier I have of bringing myself out. My introvert self became more and more domineering, and the extrovert side which I've trained myself to be became so diminutive. I can't carry on conversations anymore! Oh no...

Third. I've gained weight. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay people, the only person that can call me fat is Joanna Ying Ng. So if your name's not that, don't agree with me that I am fat. LOL. I'd rather hear lies: "Oh, don't be silly; you're not fat at all!" HAHA.

I'm glad my disappointments end at number three. It's depressing to count my poops. T_T

Oh well, anyway, HAVE AN AWESOME TIME TONIGHT! COUNTDOWN!
Love you all, my faithful and patient blogders! <3


p.s. To you-know-who, you're the one that pushed me away. Of course there's a logical explanation on your side, but I don't care; 'cos you chose this path eventually. I'm not going to turn back and try to start anew; you didn't even give a chance to do so. Well. Maybe you're right, maybe we should all stay this way. I'll be happy and I'll move on. I hope you'll be joyful too. But if one day you decided to change your mind, I'm always here. 'Cos a friend is still a friend even though he leaves. :)

Oblivious me.

It amuses me how I can be so oblivious sometimes - Why am I not caring any more? Maybe I've seen too much of these humdrum games? Awful. Ubber confused and disappointed with myself; I should just slap myself to death.

Well yes, I know I'm wrong... But I don't want to say 'I'm sorry'.

Christmas... BELATED! I hate google blogger.

Firstly,
Happy birthday to...
IBM SHIJIA!
AMOS!
YUANQING!
AMY (YAM)!

There are so many things I wanna blog about - Christmas, nick nacks, my current love... But this DAMNED !@#$%^&* blogger just want to cut me off. On Christmas afternoon I tried blogging but Google seems to be cocked up. Here's why:


See, I can't even find the login field and button.

The same problem occurs again with Mozilla Firefox:


Hurhurr?

It's only way after Christmas do Blogger give me a chance to blog. Le sigh. So much for being a faithful blogger.



Well anyway, here are the photos:


Snapshots before the musical. The musical wasn't exactly nice, but it's still okay.


One of my favourite pictures! Darla Eve with ubber nice soft lighting. ;D





Cantata at Church. Eve and Josh - WHAT HANGMAN SECRET ARE YOU BOTH KEEPING, HUH. I'M STILL WONDERING, YOU KNOW.


Confirmation (not baptism. I keep mixing 'em up, lol)! That's me, mom, and my cousin Dotty! ;D

Oh, thanks to my supportive blogders, family (esp daddy! And Germ who helped me to film the process, heh heh), pastor Willy, fellowship friends, and all those who prayed for me! Loves!

And thank you cousin Dotty, Elmo, Marc (Eiu), Xling, and Jesse for coming all the way down to support me on my confirmation. Double loves! <3


Christmas thanksgiving dinner with my family! Yums, I love turkey! <3


Ooh, I love presents (8 of those are Ferrero Rocher, and half of them are my dad's. LOL)!


Presents de-wrapped! JoJo's joining in the cheer too, haha.


[Christmas is a time to Love] by Glory Children Choir.
(Psst, I teach the young kids at the front and second row, heh heh heh.)



This is a tad bit too slow but still, I wanna wish all my blogders A BLESSED (and belated) CHRISTMAS!

God loves you! <3




Blogders PM (click to enlarge):

Chrismas mood!

Foremost, I want to say...
THE NEW BLOGGER SUCKS. It took me 8 minutes to get here. !@#$%^&*

Anyway, Christmas is just two days away! Excited ;D Bah, I know I'm excited over the wrong things - Party, champagnes, turkey, hollies. pine trees, presents, good cheer, awesome TV programmes, jingles, pretty lights... BUT. I know the real meaning of Christmas, okay; and I'm celebrating for the right reason! Not like some people (HAHAHAHAHA. XLING AHEMS.) who's celebrating the occasion just for the fun of it, tsk tsk.

IT'S OUR CHRIST JESUS' BIRTHDAY, AYE!

My home's already getting the Christmas mood...

HEEHEE.


Here's how I celebrate His birthday:
1. Caroling with my youth fellowship mates
2. Clown Musical at VCH
3. Church celebration
4. My baptism on Christmas eve! HEHEHE.
5. Family thanksgiving (TURKEY. YUM!)
6. Relative Christmas gathering (TURKEY AGAIN. DOUBLE YUM!)

Oh shit, it's 12.20 I gotta run. Meeting darla at 12.30.
LOVE YOU ALL BLOGDERS! <3

Outlaws. EFFING STUPID.

You know why I'm so frustrated with men sometimes? 'Cos they are frigging ignorant and imperceptive. They only care 'bout whatever stuff they think's right. And you know what? They never do care about the consequences - All the shitloads and changes that the people would need to face.

"I'll regret if it is not made known to you."
Ya whatever, forget it.
'Cos you know what? I DON'T FRIGGING CARE AND I DON'T WANT TO CARE.

I'm disappointed and I can't find a better word to describe how I'm feeling right now.
Screw the world and all the poopoos living in it.

RAHHHHHHH!@#$%^&*!

Jealousy.

Maybe it's true, or maybe it's just plain jealousy... I don't know. It just feels weird being treated like any other. What's more, that 'someone else' is only your fresh mate whom you met one month ago.
It feels doubly wrong especially when everything else change ever since you get into the picture. The sad part's when it affects me negatively, and gives you bonus points instead.
It annoys me but I can't say anything much because you're not just any other friend.

I thought I was special, but I guess I was wrong.

Well I wanna take this chance, too, to give Jiayun (my lovely Tofu) a BIG BIG HUG. I know how depressing it is to actually break off with your friend, especially when that someone is really dear to you; it takes much courage. And. Thanks for lending me a ear - You made me happy. :)

Anyway, I don't want to be all emo and stuff at 1am. :)
Here's what happened to me the past week...

My carol mates:



NP mates at Alumni "restaurant":


Darla Eve's birthday:



p.s. No blogders' PM! Sorry ;P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY and updates.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated or not) TO:
Jerina!
Marc'!
JJ!
Josh'!

Updates:
10. IDLM! IL______. Guess guess guess. ;D I'll tell you next time!
9. I've updated my blog links already. So, happy blog-hopping, lovely blogders! <3
8. Kevin and I went into the finals! TRALALA.
7. My baby bro's going to Thailand for some evangelism thingy this Thursday...
6. ...and his birthday's today! Love you, silly.
5. I think I lost someone really really important. Yes, again.
4. I keep forgetting what's a POD !@#$%^&* (Screw it; I know, it's already week 8) -,-"
3. I've finished shooting, and Amy's an awesome talent. Mediacorp, ahem!
2. I broke my toe nail. OUCH.
1. I've gained weight, and it's really awful. Call me FattyPattyCantabile.





Blogders PM:
fio;
YAAAAA. I so love Christmas! Jesus' birthday!!! <3 Can't wait for it to come.

daryl;
Yea, I know. SAD. p.s. Smells great ;P

kym;
Haha nothing to talk about it. IMU!

jiayun;
That can't be done since... HAIYA, it's just complicated!

geshy;
wols = slow ;)

gina;
I don't L M! M's just a GC, that's all. Besides... It's impossible, lar. So don't be silly and stop teasing me! YOU EL!

lav;
LLJ. Guess what's that? Teehee. And why didn't you shout out my name? It's been quite some time since I see you...

Why won't you go away?

I'm remembering all the wrong things; all the trespasses and all the misfits. Le sigh. I don't understand - Why won't you go away?


We adore eyeliners! <3

Updates.

Things I'm HAPPY about:
4. Tofu's staying over today to finish our CG project!
3. I passed WritComm!
2. Taking photos today was fun!
1. Made-up with Gina! ;D UBBER UBBER GLAD!

Question to my blogders:
How do you make things go back to how they were before all these happen without making the other party misunderstand your intentions?

Le sigh.

I miss...
Eve darla, manda monkey, elmo rabbit, sarah ho ho ho, mayne, jer nana, xiang bestie, andy sng, ron, daryl, bert, kym monster, daryll, jordus lim pork pork, sweet cassie, marc, rica, jesse, xling, ben, rudy, amy, katty, ain, fion, jappo, zming, keong, fel, carrie, lynn, fangster, tan, and tim.

I miss...
Daddy, mommy, my baby bro. Hope they're having fun in Indonesia.

I miss...
...hanging out with my T1B3 mates - Gina (really really miss talking to you), aunt XUIqi, silly tofu, xixila, and guru huimin! <3 Loves.

I miss...
...falling in love. Sighs.

I miss...
...the cute guy on the bus (HAHAHAHAHA).



Blogders PM:
kym;
Yep yep! ;D

lav;
I don't see you so much anymore :( And guys are SO typical, lol.

daryl;
My hols' coming!!! EXCITED. (p.s. Of course I'm no.1 cutiepie! LOL.)

william;
;D

eve;
Love you too, darla! <3

cheak;
Yep it's awesome, man. And beautiful girls? They're too tough for the guys, HAHAHA.

andy;
Stressed over..?

daryll;
What AH BENG. Want to fight, is it? HAHAHAHAHA.

jiayun;
Shut up with the HL, ah! Or I'll really stuff a pau into your mouth.

ron;
I MISSED YOU!!! :(

caleb;
HELLO! Heh, didn't know you go to my blog! Tee hee! ;P We should take pictures!

Jay Chou's MVs.

(edit)
It's ridiculous - Why do guys like stupid girls that own a really high-pitched voice, whines darn much, and hits your arm like a retard (and you know what? It never hurts)? BAH.

I've surveyed Marc', Jesse, Ben' Goh, MATT' (hahaha, you bastard), Zhi Rong, Nat', SMELLYPILLOWS (change your shampoo, please), Melv', Pete, and Mirhan.
Out of 10 of them, 7 of them like girls with fair skin tone, long hair with girly bangs, huge eyes, small mouth, a tote nose, and have to be a lil' clueless so they will look cute; WTH. Pete added MANICURED NAILS as a primary look-out. zzz.

You know why it annoys me so much?
'COS I HAVE NEITHER OF THOSE, HURHURR.
!@#$%^&*

Anyway. Putting those sources together... ...and this is what you'll get:

Rainie
Yes, it annoys me. Grr.

OH WELLS.
These Jay Chou MVs have awesome cinematography and camera works. Try spotting them yourself. ;) *claps*


Tui Hou


Ye Qu


Fa Ru Xue

Anton bastard.

Anton is an asshole a bastard.
He should pinch himself to death.

No, I'm not kidding about wanting him dead. He's so full of himself he thinks everybody doesn't mind his fugly, disrespectful, and hurting acts. At least the best he could do now is to apologize... ...but did he? No. That makes him a P-Man. If you've read my blog long enough, you'll know what it is (you wouldn't like me calling you that, I assure you).