Yes, I do love LOVE.
My parents have a very successful marriage, and I wonder if that is part of the reason I am always trying to find the right person and why I feel like such a failure when a relationship doesn't work out.
I like seeking relationships that are clearly defined with clear boundaries and lines. Once they're blurred or slurred I start panicking and crawl back into my hole of vulnerability.
I become extremely invested in people and things that I care about, which can cause me to fall for someone quickly. So sometimes I sort of build this wall around me to guard my heart preventing myself to love anyone too much. As most guys these days have relationship patterns that are a total reverse of mine, a part of me fears that if we were to get really serious, one of us might wind up getting hurt.
I wonder what's going to happen to me next.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Monday, July 15, 2013
RUNNING
I've been running. For so many reasons.
Running when I feel fat. Running when I need the energy. Running when I'm going crazy. Running when I need time alone. Running when I want to stop crying. Running when I need to run away from my sadness.
And I'm exhausted from all that running. Running away from my notes of depression is what knocks me out, not the sadness itself. Sorrows enter and leave your life like a rush of wave. We have to learn to ride it, let it wash over us and recess. It is the constant motion of things, its the reality you live in, and its what you have to accept to live a happy life.
Where we trip up is in letting it consume us. Seeing the wave and assuming it will take us down and letting it do just that. But if we’ve learned anything from life its that nothing lasts, not even our sadness, and pushing it away somehow makes it stronger.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Running when I feel fat. Running when I need the energy. Running when I'm going crazy. Running when I need time alone. Running when I want to stop crying. Running when I need to run away from my sadness.
And I'm exhausted from all that running. Running away from my notes of depression is what knocks me out, not the sadness itself. Sorrows enter and leave your life like a rush of wave. We have to learn to ride it, let it wash over us and recess. It is the constant motion of things, its the reality you live in, and its what you have to accept to live a happy life.
Where we trip up is in letting it consume us. Seeing the wave and assuming it will take us down and letting it do just that. But if we’ve learned anything from life its that nothing lasts, not even our sadness, and pushing it away somehow makes it stronger.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Tuesday, July 02, 2013
PUNCTUALITY
Being punctual strengthens and reveals your integrity.
Being punctual shows you are dependable.
Being punctual shows your respect for others.
Being punctual shows your humility.
Being punctual builds your self-confidence.
Being punctual assures you're at your best.
Being punctual builds and reveals your discipline.
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