Maybe?

Maybe?

As I put down the phone the blood just rushed to my face. And my eyes feel like they're carrying weights.

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

By the time you see this, everything will probably disappear.



Okay. If I don't say this, I might explode.

I think I'm an angsty kid, well at least that's what my dad always tell me. And today with all its nonsense, annoys me:

1. Getting rude phonecalls. If you're asking for someone to do something, ask nicely. Hey, a "hello" and "thanks" would be good. You don't call and "Have you done this? Done that? No, you have to do this and do that. Okay, bye." This, is rude. And you don't have to go through EQ courses to know that.

2. Daddy keeps away my stuff leaving me hunting for them for the entire morning. And when asked where he place it and stuff, he tells me he "didn't touch it". Come on, who in the house will ever pack the house? My brothers? Please. Didn't find them eventually and I left home for church with my clothes soaked in sweat.

3. The weather. Seriously.

Anyway.
I don't know if I'm overly sensitive or what, but I've got a thing about people being blunt or unrefined about the way they talk. (Okay, I'm guilty of that, sometimes.)

Like in a production shoot, things like "oie, stop talking, we're going to roll already" is imo, rude. It can be said like, "okay guys, silence on set; we're going for a take". Or to a cast, "okay, don't talk so fast" can be replaced with "let us try to say this line a little slower".

In words, replacing negative sentences with positive ones can make the atmosphere a lot better.

Don't you think so?

And then I said, I believe

And then I said, I believe

While the night is still young
There'll never be a long lovely view

Because the night is still young
I've got a lot of catching up I've got to do
While the night is still young
While the night is still young






I'm feeling a little lost, a little upset, a little mad, a little okay.
She sold away the last and only thing Grandmama has left for me.

Mementos. Always on and going about it. I once said that we have to hide mementos away from our eyes if we want to move on; and they are only allowed to be taken out after you've dealt well with your loss and have completely moved on.

I've moved on, but I've lost all mementos of her at the same time. In fact I haven't even thought about it till I was told today that they were sold away to a goldsmith. But perhaps that's why hiding away helps - You gradually forget, till you're reminded.

That's how people move on.

Men should burn

They should burn

I don't understand - How can anyone react to concerns with annoyance, ignorance, and anger?! You're like that, he's like that, everyone's like that. Unappreciative freaktards.

If disappearance is what you people want from us,
we will do just that.

I can resist anything but temptation

I can resist anything but temptation

Coincidence, is God's way of being anonymous.



It's not likely that a specific serendipity or coincidence to occur. It's more likely for some amazing unnamed incident to occur. Like intending to get presents for each other on Christmas and collided into each other in the gift department store. Or for a more remarkable one - In Psalm 46 of the King James Bible, published in the year that Shakespeare turned 46, the 46th word is "shake", and the 46th word from the end is "spear" (well actually I'm more impressed with the person who noted this). That is why such coincidences are noted in hindsight, not predicted with foresight.

I love how money comes rolling in

I love how money comes rolling in

It's pleasant that people still remember your clothes. Someone called to ask me about my prized possessions - Those clothes that I don't wear to school nor church; they are the clothes that I only wear to really special occasions, and that I pack them nicely back into their boxes and tissue, with all the paper receipts and care instruction cards still packed inside.

For those who remember my Luella cream cardigan with buttoned sleeves and my faux velvet double-frill black skirt, yes I'm finally selling them off to someone who will take care and love them for her entire life. And that lucky someone is... K.Tan (if you recall, she's the spunky-mod-edgy-emo girl from NYGH).

Ugh, eyesore. But yes, this' Luella for you:


I was thinking of clearing my wardrobe and sell them off to all fashionistas who wanna get (secondhand) pretty clothes/bags at a lower price. Okay, if you happen to see this, don't hesitate to call or email me to view 'em.

Uh, okay if you dig branded or reputable goods I've got labels like Lulu, People of Asia Company, Gucci, LV, Naf Naf, Joan, Miss Sixty... And if you're looking for unique pieces, I've got HK underground labels like G.Girl. Well, I don't wear or use most of them. Even when I do I only wear them out like once or twice, and they are all handwashed.

Reason is, I don't actually wear or carry branded/labelled goods; I don't really know how I get them either. In fact on most days I actually wear jiat-palang or homey knitted clothes.And by keeping them in my wardrobe I'm actually killing their precious life. And I'm in need of moneyyyyy!

I smell curry ;D
K, bye.

Change/Delete blog address

I need help!

I wanna remove/change my blog address (for many reasons) but I need help!

1. If I delete my blog, can people still find my blog on the net? I know there's no blog for them to access to already; but there's cache. Will it still be found on the net if they google it?

2. I don't want people to be able to register the blog even after I deleted it. However, if I delete my blog address, which one will appear? Also, if I change my blog address, which one will appear?

A)


B)


(Don't worry, I'll inform those faithful blogders that I know about if I change/delete this blog.)

Self-absorbed people have to go to bed without supper

Self-absorbed people have to go to bed without supper

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here



Most young girls like expressing themselves in such a way that they are weak, emo, and helpless (okay okay, sometimes I'm guilty of that in my blog, unintentionally). When they write poems or songs it'd be along the line of failing, loneliness, need a hand, and all.

Like when they're leading a worship, they'd say things like being stressed, feel like giving up, walking alone... Yes, they say that every single time they're up on the stage.

So I was wondering, is your life really that sad?

It's for sure that all of us will face multiple setbacks and challenges - Alone. And at times on top of the living hell, people make your life even worse than it already is. However despite those really upsetting moments, I'm sure there are life's candies lying around. You just have to take note of them. :)

Finding joy in the midst of sorrow is the best way to pick yourself up.
Don't wallow in self-pity.

Reading her chronicals

Reading her chronicals

What if I tell you I feel bitter?
Will you make me feel better?

Today's an okay day.



I have so much I want to say/cry/whine/update about; but when I sit down all ready to do just that, I have nothing better to say than "today's an okay day".

I feel... overwhelmed. I want to throw up.

They were talking about karma, ha!

They were talking about karma, ha!

This is the last night you'll have to be alone
We're all looking for answers, we're all down here on our knees
All anybody really wants is something to believe



Okay. So yesterday and the day before I was walking to and fro from my bedroom to the bathroom to my bedroom and back to the bathroom - and eventually decided that I must as well sleep in the bathroom. I couldn't fall asleep the entire night. My bladder freaking needs a break.

Visited doctor mimi yesterday with dear cc and he concluded that my body's filled with bacteria and I needed to flush out the toxins. I paid SGD40 for nothing but these remedies:

1. Drink A LOT A LOT of water.
2. Stop keeping the pee in. Just go pee.
3. Don't use any scented feminine wash. I'm going to thrash my Vagisil wash.

It's all better now.

Anyway HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY DEAR DEAR TOFU!




P.S. Hey Derrick, Xiuqi, Chinhwee, Jerry, Eugene, Dengli... I'll keep your team in my prayers! Don't worry 'cos everything will fall into place eventually, especially when you involve God in it :)

P.P.S. Check out the production stills for my shoot on FB! Bye!

Stay with me

Stay with me

The feeling of needing to pee urgently but there's no pee annoys me.
My bladder is getting senile.

Villain Octoman vs. Mdm. Granny Woe:

Okay this' got no relevance to the shoot (we took it while prepping up the shooting location with the props that were lying around the room) but the battle video we took is SO FUNNY you'd die laughing ;D

I'm so tired but I just have to blog about this before I snooze! I just wanna say...

"IT'S A WRAP!!!"

Yes! Pre-pro and production is over for my team; IBP is halfway through. Ah, all the best for the Cycle 2 teams who are gonna shoot really soon!

Thank you all for helping!
Goodnight!

Walking the distance

Walking the distance

Hey IBP mates (Tofu, CC, Huimon, and Lampy),

I'm glad things took a good turn recently and everything seems to be falling into place. We'll be meeting again in well, exactly 5 1/2 hours' time. We gotta continue to concentrate on doing the best on our own side and things will turn out good. All the best, okay? ;D

Let's all rest well tonight and be prepared for our combat week commencing in 5 1/2 hours' time.
GO GO GO!

Goodnight :)


P.S. Thanks for all who's helped/gonna help in our production - LCM, Derrick, Nigel, Shawn, Gina, Jerry, 2 PAs, Ruihe, Zac, Jon, Mom & Dad, HM's parents, CC's dad... and those whom I've not mentioned - yet.

xoxo
Your LOVABLE Producer,
Joanna ♥

Wind blowing through naked bodies

Wind blowing through naked bodies

I apologize for my previous ominous post. I'm taking it down.
Now I'm telling myself (yet again) not to give up.
So I'm hoping everyone will hang on too.

:)

Perhaps love

Perhaps love

“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Baby sis Melody ♥



Before I forget,
happy birthday Mr. HK :)


Well well this is probably the only picture I have of you and I in my iPhoto. And it doesn't even show our faces. Hah. I thought I've got more, though. But I can't find em anymore. Wonder why.

Ryan's a happy man touching his right breast.

My butt is so flat I have spaces behind my new underwear

My butt is so flat I have spaces behind my new underwear

:(

I think I miss going out. And shopping. And cycling. And hiking. And baking. And partying. And reading. And TV-ing. And writing. And laughing. And eating. And chilling.



I was laughing when I saw this picture and asked Jiayun.

"Eh! Why am I bending down?!"
"Cos Gina too short. You're beside her."
"Then why must you bend?"
"Must 配合."

See, because of you lor, Gina. Everytime, hahahhh!