Today I miss you

I really hope I get a new cellphone. It's not that I'm sick of you, my baby K800i, it's just that you're getting so ill I'd better put you to sleep. I need a phone that can double up as a camera (which has more mega pixels than my current phone), and doesn't require a joystick (which will always screw up).

Can someone give me an early birthday present? MOMMYYY!

My lemon tree

My lemon tree

I had my dinner at Fish & Co. today with puibong! ;D Yum yum.

Anyway today I remembered someone. Someone so abhorring, you'll hate yourself for being around him. Okay well maybe some of you can take his habits all, but I don't think I can. I hate calculative and stingy people. Especially guys. Yuck. These are the classic conversations we had one day in his house...

Stingy: Why did you let the water run?
Joanna: I was bathing.
Stingy: When you put shampoo why didn't you turn it off?

Joanna: Hey you owe me $30 but you haven't return yet.
XLing: Huh! Really ah? (takes out $30 for me)
Joanna: No luh, just kidding only.
Stingy: Joanna, why did you lie?
Joanna: Why? I'm just joking, luh.
Stingy: But it's still a lie.

XLing: Turn on the aircon, leh! Damn hot! See, Joanna's having heat rash again.
Stingy: Hot meh? (please, his tee is soaked)
Joanna: Hmmm. At least for an hour? So we can cool down.
Stingy: But I think the weather's quite cooling.

Stingy: Can you please go put the dishes into the sink?
Joanna: Later la. We just finished eating.
XLing: Ya, and we're chatting now. We'll do it later.
Stingy: Can't you just stand up and put them into the sink?
XLing: Just hang on, la!
Stingy: I hate lazy people. F*ing assholes.
Joanna: Fine. We'll do it now. (grumbles)
Stingy: And remember to wash it.
XLing: We're your guests eh!
Stingy: But you all are my friends. Cannot wash is it?

Stingy: I hate ITE people. They're all stupid.
Joanna: Not true.
Stingy: Stupid is genetic. I bet their whole family's stupid.

XLing: OMG OMG OMG! This puppy is so cute!
Stingy: I hate girls who act cute. Bimbos.
XLing: Who?
Stingy: Isn't it obvious who I'm referring to?
Xling: Me? A bimbo? Well that shows at least I have looks. What do you have?
Stingy: Brains is better than looks.
XLing: Trying to say you're smart, la?
Stingy: I do get the top 5 in my level.
XLing: Haolian. Can only study but EQ damn bad, dress sense damn bad, face so many volcanoes, and breath stinks like mad.

That day was horrible. And I didn't bother to talk to him ever again after that day. I freaking hate people like that who are a) stingy, b) rude, c) calculative, d)who implements their ideals on people.

Burn, burn, burn!

Burn, burn, burn!

My Thursday morning sucks so much I can puke a tub of fresh blood.

Joanna: Uncle, 去 Ngee Ann Poly.
Uncle: Okay (drives)
Joanna: (realizes that he's taking another route) 我要走Upp Bukit Timah的路
Uncle: 啊！ 我驾到这里了！
Joanna: 不要紧。现在还在Central。你可以 u-turn 回去。走Clementi 回需要很多时间。
Uncle: 不可以，不可以！

Seriously, my money or your money. Besides, u-turning back can save me at least $8, okay.

Joanna: (wth?!) 没关系。 现在u-turn还来的急。
Uncle: 我走 Clementi 啦。通PIE那里会很快。

Okay, I'm usually pretty peaceful and quiet, and I try not to quarrel with cab drivers (they might rape me just to revenge); but today's different. I couldn't help it.

Joanna: (by the time the cab's went quite a distance already and walao, traffic super slow, please) Uncle, 你看啦！你应该就听我的话。现在迟到了啦。
Uncle: 没有！走那边一样会迟。
Joanna: 我通常走Upp Bukit Timah, 10-15分钟就到！
Uncle: 你赶我，我不可以tahan！
Joanna: (gives up) 随便啦。快点就可以了。
Uncle: 为什么要这么迟上学？我这样会很怕！

Is he an idiot or what? And what's with the personal attack? Got passenger still complain.

Joanna: 迟就是迟，lor。人家都是迟到才达taxi嘛。
Uncle: (looks around) 走这里是吗？
Joanna: 也可以。你不会去？
Uncle: 现在突然。。。忘记。
Joanna: 那你accept call做什么？！

Stupid. -.-"


To my kantang blogders, the translated ver.:


But well, after I thought about it for a while, I realize I was too harsh and too auntie, and I'm pretty sorry about that.



P.S. Puibong! Can we eat at Fish & Co.? I have cravings!

Sometimes too little's too much

Sometimes too little's too much

I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder if I should get up and fix myself a drink
It's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset

I'm so, so, so tired.
Do you understand?



It scares me to see how shockingly fair I've become.

I think I need to...
1. Pack my room (again)
2. Go for a loooonng walk
3. Finish watching all the serials I've got
4. Complete all my assignments
5. Have a real quiet time with God

Btw do you realize I haven't been uploading photos? That's because I can't be a photo whore anymore - My camera phone's ruined.

:(((

Why must life be so SAD?

Do you want some s'mores?

Do you want some s'mores?

Lonely, I am so lonely
I have nobody
To call my own
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody
To call my own
I'm so lonely

Funny :)

Last night was awful. I woke up in the middle of the night with tons of mozzie bites. Made me so grumpy. I counted and there were like, 8. Hated them since I was a kid. I remember getting stung by them all o'er my face when I first came here.

我不喜欢蚊子！

Anyway, I'm going to edit my Media Law assignment now, but I've got no mood for that. I know I shouldn't act or make decisions due to my mood. But really, I'm so sick and tired of Law. And I'm really really bored right now. Everyone's busy and wouldn't talk to me.

XLing: Call you later - I'm painting my nails.
Jesse: (didn't even pick up the phone)
XQ: Doing my docpro proposal now.
Derrick: Talk to you later - Doing up my room.
Brother: (ignores me) Can you help me do my artwork? Need to submit tomorrow.
Mama: (ignores me as well) You so free now ah? Help me fold the clothes.

I give up.
Will someone, anyone perk me up?

:(

She wants scream profanities when she's angry

She wants scream profanities when she's angry

Where do we place our frustrations? In our pockets, not on our mouths.



This is of explosive indignation and aggressive irritation. You make me want to go FWAH sometimes. So today I'm going to hide in my carapace in case I go postal.

Goodbye.

昨日淚光 會隨時間都蒸發

昨日淚光 會隨時間都蒸發

Here are the tag replies (click to enlarge):


Bridging differences. Noticing differences in any relationship between mortals gives you two options:
a) Accept it
b) Discard it

It's okay to have differences in a relationship. It's healthy. But what builds it is the similarities. That's why it's important to build a bridge that connects both rifts. Like similar goals and principles in which they strive to work towards and live by.

Can you carry me to the moon?

Can you carry me to the moon?

Aye, I think I need to clear some confusion here. For those dear blogders who think that I'm upset and therefore give me really sweet tags, sms-es, and PMs, thank you so much. But really, I'm not being upset or emo. My mind's just having a run-through, yep.

Okay, maybe I was a little emotional (just a lil tad bit) when I was typing that but all was well at that very moment as I clicked "publish post". So, don't worry about me!

Thank you anyway for those who care. BIG HUG TO ALL!


P.S. Thank you tofu - Was really touched when I saw that message. It somehow made me smile :)))

P.P.S. Btw, do I really sound that wretched? :\

I think I can take the blow

I think I can take the blow

So blow me away with your cannonball. Ignore me, leave me, hurt me. But I won't be crawling to your feet and beg you not to abandon me.

Women should brace themselves and be tenacious. They should not crumble and lower themselves no matter how desperate and desolate they are. As what I always say, with the grace of a woman, not the griefs of a child.

I'm in no position to say this; but be brave, be strong, move on.

And so the apple tree grew

And so the apple tree grew

Toys are made in heaven, batteries are made in hell
- Tom Robbins



When I was younger, I had little friends. Friends I hung out with only 'cos I don't want to walk around in school by myself like I was a social outcast. I hated them. Truly, I wanted to be alone. As I grew older, I picked up a new skill - Online chatting. I started using ICQ, MSN, IRC; and I adopted a screen name - Spirit89. I met many new people and I started to open up. Yes, I became popular not only on the web, but in reality. I enjoyed the limelight... but slowly I start to hate it. I hated the way I carried myself. I hated how superficial I was. And so I withdrew and crawled back into my shell. Since then I find it hard to open up like I used to. I tried many ways to be the extrovert I once was, but I noticed the difference between a genuine and being a try-out. Sometimes all I want is a true blue best friend. Oh, and I think I need a paragraph.

There.
It's not like all my friends vanished the moment I withdraw. In fact, I've got friends aplenty; yet, I feel awful all the time. I was lonely, I was angsty, I was depressed. I needed someone, yet I pulled back whenever someone tries to be too close. I wondered why. So guess what I learned to do? I learned to be a workaholic - To keep myself busy. I just kept being busy all the time. And then I realize I couldn't get out of it. This really isn't me.

Who am I?
I truly want to know.

Made in Germany

Made in Germany

These are love :)





I can't get enough of 慈禧太后 Empress Ci Xi! I've seen books, articles, and pictures of this insane lady everywhere. But then I realized... She's not the main Empress. It's supposed to be 慈安太后 (Empress Ci An; Nuharoo). So why can't I find Ci An's picture anywhere? Heard she's a beauty.

Also, it's been rumoured that Ci Xi's eunuch, 安得海 (An De Hai), also known as 小安子 (Xiao An Zi; sometimes seen in periodic Chinese shows), has an affair with Ci Xi herself although he doesn't have the MQ (Man's Quality). It's not surprising considering that Ci Xi lost her husband, the Emperor, when she was in her early 20s. Living in the Forbidden City can make one very desperate, I heard.

SO ANYWAY. If you've got any great links/pictures/books/whatever that's related to the Qing Dynasty, don't hesitate to let me know.

Thanks :)

Unlimited access

Unlimited access

Okay, I shall do a quickie while waiting for puibong to arrive.

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My my my, I just realized "quickie" doesn't sound right. But anyway, you know what I mean luh, huh.
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It's always sad to say goodbye. Can't believe I'll be graduating soon. I'll miss the T1B3 babes, Jonathan, Chinhwee, and Yan (my favourite team mates). And last week we had to bid farewell to our dearest scriptwriting lecturer, Ryan. Le sigh. I enjoyed his classes.



See that only angmoh in the picture? That's him. And yes! Gina's back from Shanghai! ;D

Btw, I'll be heading to Johor tomorrow with my family (I forced everyone to take leave, hahahahhh)! Movie marathon! Hoorah. Poor Jojo will have to stay home alone.

Okay, I think puibong's arriving soon. So just before I forget...



Wah seh. Derrick's one of the top winners eh (out of the 200+++, I think). Well actually I was forced to put this picture up, hahahahahahhhh!

Haolian kia ;P

Okay, BYE.

The duck doesn't want to rest

The duck doesn't want to rest

No, I've not recovered from my 12/20 trauma. But don't worry, I'm not going to whine about it. Today I've got something to share. Some of you may have heard of it but I'm just going to say it anyway.

"The Chinese are the richest when they're dead."
True, not?

They're not only the richest, but the only rich ones in hell. When a Chinese dies, their kins burn huge houses, maids, cars, money... everything they can think of, to them (whom their kins believe, resides in hell). Then hang on and think about this for a moment - Then how 'bout the Angmohs, the Malays, the Red Indians, the French? They'll be freakdamn poor, don't you think? I think they'll wander in hell with no clothes on.

In my own opinion, I think burning stuff for their kin who passed away is just a gesture of piety not to the dead ones, but to the other people who look at them. But no, it doesn't mean they are filial; it's more of showing off to people around. Okay maybe there are really people who does that who are freaking filial.

But from the roots of this practice, I think they're just show-offs, freakdamn hypocrites. The Chinese, dating hundreds of years back, always make up practices to show the others that they're nice, filial, hardworking... bla bla bla. 'Cos maybe they're not, and they want to prove to the others otherwise.

Take for example, the practice of cutting oneself and allow the (dying) parent to drink it together with their herbal soup so that the lifespan of the living will be transferred to the dying. It doesn't make sense at all, but it's a form of filial piety. Yes again, to show the others.

If you're really that filial, why don't you act it out when they're still alive? Why wait till they're dead?

Don't you think by doing so, it's more of an act of compensation for the living's guilt?

I hate regional cinema, film history, and intro to film

I hate regional cinema, film history, and intro to film

I've got 12/20 for my regional cinema presentation. Yes. 2 marks to failing. Can't believe it. Worst of all is that relatively everything's okay, just that I got to tweak some stuff that's all. And... 12?! That's pretty low, don't you think?

:(

And when it was stated in the marking sheet that my presentation skills are good but I still get a 3/4 for that category. Eh?! At least bother to state where that other 1 mark went right?

And walao, just because the font size of two out of the many slides I have are quite small and that I need to have larger video clips, I got frigging 1/4 for that category. WHAT WHAT WHAT. SO BAD MEH. Tsk.

So upset I can hang myself. Yuck.

You make me smile so much

You make me smile so much

...that I feel like throwing up

Wah, Derrick's got the world's worst excuses, man. Got time to have supper, no time to send me back. :( And he can still complain he's got no time to do work. Liar lor. No wonder Rica say guys always have lousy excuses. Pui pui pui.

Anyway I think I've got a good solution to sad people out there, especially girls. If you're upset and totally stressed out, just go out with your girlfriends and spend money. You don't have to spend on quality stuff. Just buy anything. And if your pocket's burnt, you can just get yourself a cup of coffee or maybe a small necklace - And I swear your day would be much better. Really.

:)

Today I shopped a little after my group discussion with the babes, and immediately my mood lightened. Esp' after I bought stuff for others. Indeed, it makes one happy to see someone else smile :)

Astro boy toy for Cecilia!


Okay I'm going to do my last min work now. Bye :'(


P.S. Thanks Marc' for that super nice box of colour pencils! Really sweet of you. It's been very long since someone bought something for me for no reason. Made my day ;D

Look what you've done

Look what you've done

My terrifying week is almost over! Hee hee hee. It was really mad and not very enjoyable. But well, I managed to survive it and that's all that matters. Superwoman, ain't I?

My casts:


Just 3 more days, 3 more days, 3 more days, 3 MORE DAYS to holidays.
:)