Walls with nails

Walls with nails

How's staying at home with a tin of Jacob's and a desktop full of Final Draft? Nasty.



So I probably have not lived life to the fullest, and neither did I live a very commendable life; but I guess I'm okay with that. Maybe I'm better at something else, I said.

In His hands

In His hands

CC and I were sitting in Macs, feeling really screwed up about our IBP. We were on the verge of killing one another and exploding the building. And as we're about to pull our hair out, it suddenly dawned on us:

"We haven't prayed, have we?"

We've been focusing on our own strengths too much that we forgot about relying on God. Prayers work wonders - I'm all better now :)

Of all things

Of all things

Sometimes it comes to this point whereby you stop trying, nagging, and worrying. You just let it be. What's sad bout this is that you realize you don't care anymore 'cos there's no point in doing so.

Is this giving up?


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My mood was blah until I saw this picture. Dang funny:


HAHAHAHAHHHH. Blogging contestant some more eh, quite sick right.
Spotted her on the Canon Powershot E1 scrapbook competition.

She wears tons of make-up (with a freebie tee; how matching) which can't even conceal her eyebags. On top of that, maybe she's lazy 'cos she only applied foundation on half her face. And she didn't even bother plucking her brows.

Reminds me of ruhua.

Imagine me and you

Imagine me and you

Foremost...
Stupid Gina! You think you post those stuff on your blog I scared ah! I have more to attack back okay! Hahahahahhhhhh!!!

Gina tries to act like a Media Law pro.
But she cannot even spell "defame"! HAHAHH.


And she secretly loves me.


You think I'm dedicating this post to you ah, Gina bong bong. Dream on ;P

Introducing Dubai photos taken by... ME! Gerald Heng (PB's big bro):



Damn funny school advertorial that's been sent to all our NP mails:

HAHAHHH, XIUQI AND PB! WHY ARE YOU BOTH INSIDE?! LOL.
Damn act some more, gosh!

And I'm gonna end my post off with my own portrait (taken by PB):

I bought this home and I wear it everyday, hahahhhhhhhhhh.

K, bye!

爱是不是不开口才珍贵

爱是不是不开口才珍贵?

The best gift is to love,
and be loved in return.

Brace yourselves for some real doggy obsession post. Introducing Billy, August, and of course, my dear dear Jojo!
















Have a nice day!

And I have to act like I don't care

And I have to act like I don't care

Innocence. Bliss. Ignorance. Understanding. Emotional. Confused. Angry. Jealousy. Fear. Secrets. Self pity. All trapped in the stomach, ready to throw up. Threw up. Better already.

Conversation between Aunt-Jo and Addict-PB at SOS:

"Oie I pay SGD8 for you to come here take pics ah? GOT WATCH ONE OR NOT?!"
"Aiya got got got."
"REALLY. Through that small viewfinder?"
"Got means got la."

Okay I forgive you since the photos turn out really good ;P
And can you believe it? They're shot on film, Lucky 200, at night 8.40pm, with no tripod.

So anyway recently, odd things keep happening - Strangers emailing me, adding me on MSN and FB, telling me really odd stuff, showing me this and that. I don't know what to feel, really. "The ugly side of people", you say. Me, a bitch? Probably.

Maybe I didn't even have a pretty side to begin with.

So all these little secrets just meshed up to this whole new perspective about things. Ha. Why am I always learning something new everyday?

But you know what, strangers? I learn something else too - Why should I care? So don't bother trampling over my emotions. I have the control, anyway.

Last day of my life

Last day of my life

Tonight I walked home alone.
I must've been the most pathetic person ever.

Sing me beautiful songs

Sing me beautiful songs

My second attempt in Photoshop (after the tranny one):

(Click to enlarge)

Okay luh, so I didn't transform her face like what I did the other time with the two trannies. When PB showed me her photo, the first thing I noticed was her nose. Really don't like deep-set noses.

You know, noses that are so huge they sink into your skin so they actually have nose lines and shadows.

Before and after:


But as you can see now, no more big round deep-set nose! Also, the nose is sharper, smaller, and raised now. No more eyebags too. Thicker lips. Closer eyes. And more radiant.

No wonder the models in those glossies look so pretty. Photoshop works wonders. Wait I just realized why PB say she looks like a tranny. Must be the brows. Too thin. Thin brows make you look fiercer, older, trannier. Will tweak it next time.

Extra large burgers with extra cheese

Extra large burgers with extra cheese

Saw this really cute stamp/chop at SpotLight today and was really tempted to buy... but realized it's kinda too expensive. So I just walked away. After a while PB told me he wanted to go to the restroom.

"I'm back."
"So fast?"
"Pee only what."
"(oblivious) Okay."

And after we left SpotLight, he handed me this plastic bag - SpotLight. And guess what's in it? THE STAMP/CHOP I WANTED! So he actually went to buy it during his trip to the "toilet".



Isn't he the sweetest thing ever? ;D

Whatever happens

Whatever happens

What's the taboo word people try not to even mention? No, not the G word. It's the F word - Forever. Nobody believe in it. "You never know" is their reply. Where's the faith?

Nobody dare commit. So I guess we shouldn't commit to anything wholeheartedly... right? Cos "we'll never know".

I don't want a cleft chin

I don't want a cleft chin

Everything's hinting me now - The bible, books, sermons, talks.
Maybe my parents are right.

The cow's major:

...Obscenity.

Gling glo, anyone?

Gling glo, anyone?

I hang my head from sorrow
State of humility
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me.

Check out my new wallpaper.



It's a happy day! So thrash your goth/vintage/self-portrait wallpaper for something rainlouright (rainbow + colour + bright) ♥

Hahahh, I know. So bimbette and cosmetette. I think I just made these words up.

Little iBook and I share this unforgivable bond - A love-hate relationship. I detest it for being puny, slow, outdated, unprofessional, and unpractical. Yet I can't bear the thought of dumping it for a large, classy, and ultra-techy Macbook Pro.

Well it may be a little dated and too cutesy for my taste, but it's been very dependable. I've never really had any major problems with it despite abusing it frequently. And somehow its pure and tiny square frame cultivated this childish side of me to prep it up like a pre-schooler's toy.



You know, I really love these decos, and I don't think it'll look good on a Macbook Pro. Le sigh. And I can slowly sense that this lappy is going to fail soon. Not that it's hinting me, but well, you can somehow trust a woman's intuition, right?

And, I'm already 19! Time to snap out of these cute little things.

Anyway I'm gonna wrap this post up with my new movie list:



Buh-bye :)

Feeling the colour 'blum'

Feeling the colour 'blum'

I've been updating so frequently nowadays and I'm not happy with that.
Why do I always have so many things to talk about?
It isn't normal. My life should be so packed I don't have the time to blog.

I'd like to be a little bit more excited with life. Like, being spontaneous and crash some country - Take some play shots, work to survive, meet new people, take risks.

Ah, what joy.

Anyway I've got 3 pairs of falsies (self-given name; but I'm sure there's a more accurate name for it) and I'm not sure on which occasion should I wear 'em. They're so pretty I want to flaunt 'em! But well really, I don't even wear much makeup (I only wear eyeliner like 2 or 3 times my entire life?) and putting on falsies all of the sudden would make me look weird. No, lame.

One of my falsies, VOV criss-cross in 10:


It's freaky when you're looking at it for the first time.

I can totally picture people talking 'bout my lashes, asking me ridiculous questions like "why you put on falsies" and "what's with those lashes"; or statements like "you look funny" and "so vain nowadays, ah". But well, there's always a first time for everything right?

I can remember the time when I started wearing contact lenses. Tons of people rushed in commenting on how vain I've become, how queer I look without glasses... But see, they got used to it eventually and everyone's shut up already.

Maybe being vain is indeed part and parcel of growing up ;P

The jacket smells of You

The jacket smells of You

If a woman finds a new mate she'll become broadminded and let the past go. New love is the key to recovering self confidence.
-Wei Hui

China never learn, huh.

They're always misplacing trusts, conning people, being cold-hearted all... Till the Szechuan incident arrived, a chance to wake up and show compassion. Did they? Yea, two weeks and snap, they're back to their old behavior.

And then Olympics 2008 came, a time for revival to salvage their bad reputation.

Then they just have to screw it up with cases like food stuff with stones, toys with poisonous paint, milk with melamine, patties with water... Why are they're wasting their talent and knowledge on such stuff? If they use 'em the right way, they might even rise above USA.

Wasted.

You know, there are a lot of foreign workers from China who came to Singapore to work; and they complain (to me) how bad Singapore is and how awesome China is. Idiots. If China's so great then why are you here? Go back, la.

Anyway before I crawl into bed, here's my personality analysis. Freaking true and I haven't seen my personality in this light before!



Nights :)



P.S. Watch 'Be with you'. This link doesn't do the show justice but really, it's a good story with multiple twists.

Leaving me

Leaving me

Everybody's being a jerk today.
Everybody's just out to make me cry.
Everybody's treating me like I'm insignificant.

Goodbye.

I have a pimple in my nostrils

I have a pimple in my nostrils

I have so much to babble today!

I adore anything that smells like candy; and almost everything I own smells like one -
Facial wash? Freeman facial creamy scrub in apricot.
Body wash? TBS strawberry body polish with micro-beads.
Shampoo? Herbal Essence.
Moisturizer? Strawberry seed oil.
Hydrating lotion? Utena Fruchu fruit jelly lotion in strawberry.
Home fragrance oil? Strawberry.
Hand sanitizer? Utena hand wash in peach.
Lip balm(s)? Born Lippy in raspberry, Delicious in strawberry, TBS lip butter in guarana, Anna Sui in lychee, and Lavera in strawberry.
Fragrance? Jessica Simpson spray in cotton candy. (Didn't use it, though. Smells very kiddy.)

See.

My ex-interest in plastic/toy cameras is kicking in again (you know, those shoot-n-go kinds), and I'm thinking of getting something less complicated than my already-simple Diana and less childish than my Bubble. I think PB is subconsciously trying to influence me to give up toy cams for professional ones like his, hahahhh. Anyway, suggestions?

Btw, PB says the Bubble trend is stomping up already - I bought it for around RMB50 (SGD10) last year and now it's sold locally at SGD30 online???!!!

my Mr. Diana and Mrs. Bubble:


Today mommy asked me why does all my stuff look as if they belong to a kid (lappy, drawings, cameras, pens, bed, accessories, faux tattoo all). I really don't know. Looking and knowing me, I'm not at all cutesy! I don't have the kawaii hair bangs or wear any bright-coloured blouses. Funny.

And I foresee a umbrella vogue/fad/mania coming soon 'cos now I'm crazily in love with tulip brollies, and this is the exact one that I'm gaga over with:



I can't wait for Christmas! My favourite time of the year. I wonder how it'd be like this year. The main reason and purpose for Christmas aside, I'm excited over the turkey, stuffings, food, beer, decorative items, candles, nativity, lights around town, Christmas tree, nutcracker, faux santa, presents, celebration, and of course, the festive cheer. Tsk tsk tsk.

But anyway really, I've been talking about it since January and now it's just 2 months away. I'll be in the mood in no time.

I'm in such good mood today I think I'll have sweet dreams tonight.
Goodnight all! ;)

I love long long hair

I love long long hair

Let's all learn to smile at the storm

This HDR photo's really good. I'm in awe. It looks totally like a drawing/painting with puffy clouds as if Jesus' arriving. Asked PB and he told me I can actually achieve this myself with multi exposure (but I can never compare, of course)! And you know what? He's gonna teach me how to do it tomorrow! Yay ;D



So I was browsing through my friends' archives a while ago. Man, we've grown!

And I was laughing at my own posts. Really sick. Like some retarded idiot yapping away on her blog as if she's some celebrity blogger. It was so awkward I couldn't read on.

Yet again

Yet again

我作为什么脚色，都彻底地失败了。

Today's the most disappointing day in my entire life.
So disappointing I don't think I can ever forget till the day I lay in my coffin.

Jacked.

Empty phone calls

Empty phone calls

I'm sitting around doing what? Nothing.
No movies to watch, nothing to read, nowhere to go, no one to talk to.

"Go do your work. I'll talk to you next time okay?"

But the thing is, I have nothing to do. That's just your own excuse, and I'm sick of hearing that from everyone. Why don't you tell me you're busy now instead of coming out with an excuse for me?

Everyone's too busy for me, I guess...

Goodbye.